.The Reverse

Thanks to Everything, I know what to do. It feels great, much much better to even hide it =) Love you all. PS : I don't think I will be able to make it in time, anyway.. To my dearest toothbrush, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! BE HAPPY AS HAPPY FOREVER!! Love you. Yours Sincerely, Toothpaste.

Becoming more and more foolish to even think about it. I can't help thinking that way. THAT WAY. OK, how much have I change? How much did he change? No, that doesn't matter, he doesn't matter. No, the problem should be me. ME. REALLY, WHAT AM I THINKING??!! Even Tumblr shows me my fate. I can't be that silly to even think about the possibility of it. I really should have the mind set. HE REALLY IS TOYING YOUR FEELINGS. Crap. Anyway, WALLS, invisible solid walls that I do build up within me for the last 1 month ? I can't just break it down as I please, it builds up as it please. To share it makes it worst. I don't want complicated things to mushroom. I don't need any misunderstandings within my friends, not even misinterpretation between him. Even those feelings that I shouldn't even have, not just any feelings, Argh.(Great, now I am back to that old girl again.) No, I should not be having it, currently. I know really well that this is  my weaknes...

I don't know what am I up to these days. These few weeks. I have been hiding all the time. Somebody knows what is really happening to me. I didn't really explain much to her.It's abit complicated, but she understands.So, i take it for granted that she's my adviser, asking me slow down, don't panic. There were so many predictions to make, but some didn't really turn out to be true. I wonder if i dwelled on it too much. I have tried my best to force myself out of that impossible dream, impossible outcome. It won't happen. but, what if it does? no way, just snap out of it. It doesn't belong to you.