.The Reverse

GUESS WHAT? 9TH MAY. EXAM -.- I AM STILL NOT PREPARE AT ALL. I am totally out of my time frame. All this schedule thing is driving me crazy. School homeworks are a lump and yes, Homeworks are VEXING enough. =P I think I am gonna do badly this time, what with all the distraction i myself couldn't get over it, ( I mean entertainment), and choir. I love choir, but i think it's because i couldn't manage my time properly that i am really in a hustle. I couldn't master the conducting movements with all the ictus and techniques, making sure that everyone can see you. I must be really sure of all the parts, which I don;t think I did put enough effort in that though i am trying my best at it. HAC is on the 7th and 8th. First day will be royal day, and the second, I will be taking a sijil for getting 10As. Like I said, All As is easy, put 10A+s is really hard. Though I gave up Mandarin, I still haven't reach my goal. All my marks except for Accounts, Moral, Physics and...

It's been a few days and I am back here again. It's shit, allow me to announce this great news : 11 days before Exam. WTH. The "Miao Hui" was fun last Saturday. I walked for at least 4 hours over there, completing every route there is and in order to go back to Butterworth, I had to walk to the Jetty in Penang, and take the Ferry back. I enjoyed it although it was still the same as the year before, as this year, I had a camera and took some awesome pictures with my brother, it's rare of him to even take a nice picture, and I really like the one where we were posing in front of the Dragon head. I met the Street Art Artist, thought of taking a photo with him, but it was really really to pack to even go to him. I gave up the idea instantly. I didn't see Lim Guan Eng this year too, hope to see him next year. Definitely make it there next year. I would love to go with my friends, but I am afraid that isn't possible as one of the reason is you have got to WALK...

It's the magical month of every year. Things always happen to me in February, if I read back my posts. Haha. Well well, Chinese New Year is on it's way, I can't wait for it, but it means I am getting one year older very soon. =) Old. Yesterday was my Lunar Birthday, I had forgotten, so had mum. My parents quarrel again, whatever. I just hope they fix it up by CNY. and Guess what, I missed out sitting with Pacak today at Usaha Jaya. WTH. If only I didn't switch my place or what, he do be sitting RIGHT NEXT TO ME. ARGH!!! Nevertheless, like they said, he's become rounder, so his side looks are getting really good looking. XDXD PS : I really think that sometimes Pacak was just trying to have fun mesmerizing girls like me with his smile.        I think he knows that I admire him. Haha! Whatever. I have done my oral scripts. Finally. All those editing and all freaked my eyes out. Haha. I'm just a little worried about my oral, together with Intan as m...

I just simply want to jot down some things. Weird it is though. 1. I met Pacak when I was going down the staircase at Dewan Terbuka yesterday. He saw me from the bottom of the stairs and said Hi with his PERFECT SMILE =D 2.  LKL bought me 2 packets of Sour Plus. Seriously, his partner beside him had just joke about my liking of it. JOKE. -.- and He really did get it for me. Though I am touch, but I still pay him though. HoHo!! I will have supplies XD 3. Chosen to paired up with Suman for a short presentation for Nature.and Intan had used the word Couple . _._ll You can practically see her face with the loving balloons rushing out of her. 4. Got a whole stack of notes from IQ 200. Obviously, JJ had asked me what's wrong between us. -.- We talk. She thought we do reconcile or something. No, it won't happen, for sure. 5. I went for Tanjung's English tuition which my close friend had told me about. Of course, I got the permit from my parents. Luckily I think it was c...

I don't know what would happen if those whimpers reach my close friend. That do be a little dangerous, he's quite a killer. Though i hope he's just acting. Anyway, it wasn't much. A summary of my few months story, quite simple actually, but I took 2 period to present it. Presented. I wasn't sure if I wanted her to know either, but she's the only one that's safe for me to express my agony, as she always had been. Thanks. I was predicting what would come out of it if my close friend suddenly confronted this case. Though it wouldn't more or less matter much to him. It would be just another cracking joke or something unimportant. Which was of course, what I am always prepared for. Yes. It somehow matters so much to me about the fact  that everything sort of re-spilled because of that dream. Jots: 1. Pacak's handsome as always. The antidote. 2. I don't think I want to know who Naqib guy is. 3. Act yourself.

It's been 10 days since school reopen. My Form 5 life had started. Just some simple jots for now. 1. I have decided to drop Chinese for SPM. However, Dad had said I have to be serious for Chinese in every school tests. 2. Teachers. Intan for English, Zaiton for BM, Saturated teacher for Maths ( I can't remember her name, too many Zuu.. and Ju...), Juhaila for Biology. Others are the same. Now, I know that you can actually take 3 days to complete 4 points in a summary. ==ll 3. Miss Edna appointed me as Conductor, Fish as AssistantConductor. Honestly, this wasn't what WP and I had expected. Plus, I was elected by Joanna as Ketua Disiplin of St John.Completely blur all the way. @@. I will try my best anyway. 4. Pacak's back. He's really back. I still go crazy every time. Can' help it. XD 5. I still don't really know who that Naqib is. and, Today, Chee Tat had asked me if I had taken on CL. Seriously no, it sort of subsided, and he was just simply some...

HILARIOUS HILARIOUS JUST SIMPLY HILARIOUS. LEECH IS BACK. PACAK IS BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THANK GOD!!!  As if everything is just back in my hands.  PS :  My first sentence for Syib for today : " Cikgu, BULAT dah! " =D

I am once again back from Balik Pulau. Nothing special these few days, except for the fact that Campaign Boy is back. Right, he is extremely skinny, hates milk( imagine having to  spoon-feed  milk 3 times a day ), couldn't defecate. His favourite hobby is now walking throughout the house, screaming, and digging everything within reach with his super finger. Rolling emotions. Shit. Without Facebook in Penang, it wasn't that bad, it was suppose to be a distraction. Actually, I have plenty of time to think about being , me. Stupid and ridiculous imagination kept haunting my mind every night. I was so afraid of loosing what I have. I couldn't sleep till like hours in bed before I drifted. I wonder if what I said was right about the seasons , it's just so true that if I was the one who had been aware of this since months ago, why would it bother me so much. I wanted, badly, yet reluctantly at the same time, get out of the dwelling and hoping that something...

My holidays are still quite boring. It doesn't have a routine. No plan. No schedule, no nothing. I was practically lying around on the floor or sofa. Sometimes, if I have the mood, I will only breeze through some school stuff. I borrowed 2 books from the Kulim Library.  Like The Flowing River by Paulo Coelho, one of my favourite, as usual. The other The Speech of Angels by Sharon Maas. It's quite new to me. I started the epilogue, and it didn't make me feel like putting in down just yet. The one by Paulo Coelho , this time was new in terms of what he is trying to share, it's all his thoughts and reflection, so the index is quite long as there are many stories. The beginning was extremely startling as he learned about being a writer in the 1960's A writer always wears glasses and never combs his hair. Some of them actually made it into my life dictionary, for example A writer has a duty and an obligation never to be understood by his ow...

Oh My. Time flies. It;s already April, and May is coming. E.X.A.M.= = I can't find time to update my blog. Form 4 is really busy.All the homework and practices at school. Everyone is busy for HAC. The princess is coming. Syafinaz. I think so. Black Heart started to talk to me randomly. I don;t know what's she up to.Anyway, She has got herself hooked up with LKL, and she herself has an intense interest in her whoever-that-boy-is. I got to know too many people like Sunny in our class. Well, they ended up in cool war.Wth. Miss Gooi told me that Angkor Wat wasn't in a good state. Well, maybe. HE told me he was glad that their debate circle friends from Kl agreed to lent them the "Wai-Ka". I really hope he doesn't get lazy because of that. He;s crazy. Owh, BTW, I couldn't help but get sanguine whenever i thought of HAC Day 1, It's the Day ! ;) and I love KuKumiao and Monkey Girl day by Day. HEHEHE XDXD

I went to check my teeth yesterday for the orthodontic treatment. The doctor said that i have to extract 4 teeth. I didn't expect it to be that many. I am really terrified by that thought, but what to do? == I saw Pacak today on my way to my house at my Taman. I didn't notice that  brown Advanza, but his face sort of loomed out and YES!!!! IT's REALLY HIM!!!! How i missed his face, though i just saw him 6 days ago. XD Ping told me where his house is, but never mind, i won't go tracking. PS : I don't know if my choice is right. but i really don;t want to suffer anymore. It's just scary.         Forgive me, coaches. T.T

I can't believe that i actually shuddered when Angkor Wat said that he wanted to ask somthing about debate. It was just the old question that i haven't answered my seniors. It was raining too i suppose, and that made me feel cold inside. A teacher called me and she sort of went into talking about my personal problem, but i promise her that i will think about it. I watch Forrest Gump yesterday. It was many years back since i last watched it. I can't believe that I still cried at the same old scene. the ending. And i just reliaze that one of the author in New York CSI was one of the actor who acted as Leftenan Dan. It's the same old concept, we are like feathers in the wind. God is powerful. I am going to find out about the show Big. It seems interesting to watch. I finished almost all my homework. Left with 2 kerja amals and my SEJ module. Owh no, i really am lazy to do it. That module is really not a must, yet that teacher set a vow.== Wish me luck. HoHo. Gonna X-ra...

My trip to Taiwan was quite interesting actually. 10 degrees. <3 <3. Though its abit cold. I bought myself some accessories and a few shirts. Over there, I am Angkor Wad "assistant" when he trained. I have to make his wolf thing appear. haha. 6th Feb Reach Penang Airport. Dad couldn't recognize me. XD. Went for dinner and Told mum that I no longer have feelings for him. 7th Feb Received a message from him. He said he wants to "break up". I just replied ok. Back to school LOADS of homework. Choir practices and Account tuition.Money dividing and studies to catch up. 8th Feb Broke few records. Had lunch with Angkor Wad. Borrowed five ringgit from him. Sent out gifts together. Urgh. Pacak's no longer available. T.T 9th Feb My birthday. First birthday wish at 12am from WP. MUACKZ! Second from L. and 3rd from Fish at school. <3. Gift from Fish. Lovely =) LIKE IT! Abit disappointing that Edward did not...

1st Jan 2012 MY first day of 2012 sucks. I got a message from him in the morning which made me worried so much . but there wasn't even an explanation after that. 2nd Jan 2012 I felt like vomiting when I thought of debate. I really can't stand it any more. > < 3rd Jan 2012 Back to school, finally. I was abit surprise when Pacak was called to recite the prayers, he was suppose to go to another school. Anyway, I wasn't in a really good mood whenever a pass by that place, it made me felt eerie, I used to have a point to pass by, now, I don't really want to, it's because I needed to. I was allocated to 4SC4, guess what, 7 out of 9 of 3A8 2011 Chinese are in the same class, except for Fang2 and Xiu2. M is now my classmate too. As for WP, we have been classmates for 10 years continuously. HoHo. Another treat was, My class is just next to Pacak's. No more staircase. XD, the only thing is, Angkor Wad is my classmate too, and I c...

PMR is coming. But i came back here. I should be in my bed by now. But never mind. Pacak wasn't really available for me to see him lately. Instead, all his corrosive friends are the ones that kept appearing , and i don't want them to. Since yesterday, i have already become somebody. Right. Some sort of President of the Debate Club. > M < . Don had sent me a message just when he left me to continue being the speaker for the day. ==. I had went home at 5.30, not telling anybody what i had just become. MJ's part doesn't seem to be really well. I don;t know whether it's going to go on like this or whatever. I saw him rolling his eyes at me, but i couldn't be sure. Sorry. Stupid Xiu2, Fang2 and Wenzy. How dare your played that stupid thing on me with Zoo Negara. He's a malay ok ,I dodn;t mean to be racist, and he already has somebody, for heaven sake, i don't want him. They had all asked me to show that action to Fang2 so as to let Zo...

25th September 2011 Assembly, Pacak was absent again. Lazy Kid. He gave me one tub of Red Beans Soup, erm, a little over-sweet. (You should have told me that you are bringing me something edible, then i wouldn't have gone to buy that fried rice. XD) My dad prepares it without sugar. ==. I couldn't believe what you rebut when I commented. ≧ω≦. I went to Qiant and watched Nasi Lemak 2.0. Really really FUNNY!! Gosh! Jot : I lost one Friend. Hate It. 26th September 2011 Pacak came to school. He was just beside me during the assembly. He sang the national anthem song by shouting, got tug at his belt by his friends ==, and acted like a guitarists. Funny. Walked pass his class, I was sort of cold in the inside when i saw that he looked so fierce. > _ < I thought back whether i did offend him about anything. Wan Pei said he wouldn't be angry, I wasn't convince, the stupor carried on till school ended. But in the end it was just me being emote. Jot : RM 35 from CRC Wish Me...

Sorry for the slow updates. 19th September 2011 Pengetua left. Pacak was absent. Heard about the "Kiss Me" tale by those teachers. Don gave me a gift. I like it. The gift Wrapper. XD. I wonder how long it took him to do it. WP asked me to investigate about it, but i was unaware of the circumstances that she was hinting. 20th September 2011 I was in the canteen, the middle table. I chose that place so that i could keep a look out for Pacak. He was at the outer stall with his friends. So i just adjusted my head so that i could see him. I think maybe he didn't expect me looking at him like this and he turned his head away sheepishly. I started writing my thoughts in my notebook. Abit sentimental. 21st September 2011 I was late for the assembly. and i missed seeing Pacak. But, i guessed i started to be familiar with another person's time for coming to school. Assembly ended, I accompanied WP for her Che2, and Pacak was there, together with Aizat. I kept looking at him, he...

To me, it's like the whole thunderstorm just ended. Peace. ^^~ I woke up 15 minutes earlier to check my mailbox. They said they will send me scripts, but guess what, ONLY 8 WORDS. ==. I could have had more sleep. So, i waited for Don after the assembly, walked to Kamar Syura, Ice Beauty was on her way, guessed she could read my mind, she knew that i wanted the key. ;) Went back to class later then, PJ was cancelled, so i did some scanning over the catalogue again..Class carried on, met with the juniors at 11.00. Gosh, so tired, i walked 3 times to the staff room just to get my papers.== During recess, i manage to stand with Pacak with a distance of about half a metre. :) He was at the first sink, and me the second. I really was WASHING MY HAND, but of course, it's nice when he's there. Btw, Fish told me that it was good that i am sensitive to touch.But to me,It was lucky that I wasn't really that sensitive to touch at that time. I was concentrating on talking to the ju...

I slept like dead yesterday. I wasn't having enough sleep as i kept on staying up late. I went in the room and texted Ping and Don, told both of them that i NEED to sleep :D. After about 2 minutes, the phone beep and i replied again and fell asleep without knowing that there was another message. XD I went to school. Fish was finally back. I showed her the Scholastic Catalogue, ans the look on her face. Lol . Just like mine. FOREVER IS ON SALE! YES! She showed me her list of to-buy-list. RM101. @@! I regretted not buying Lament in the last issue. Damn it. I told WP and Fish about my new blog title.:) .The Reverse actually it started when i accidentally hit the fullstop . I was lazy to backspace it. So i just type the next 2 words. I like my blog. Ice-Beauty just questioned us about Edie. She said that she's Emotional. Correct. Unpredictable.Correct. Can shout like a banshee when she's scolding. Correct. Hehe . After English ended, i went to the canteen. My first glance was ...

Been dead tired. I didn't even realize that Pacak came today. Didn't thought about him in the morning like I always did. He was absent for 2 days, fever. I looked straight at his eyes today. Just the same sensation. :D