.The Reverse

GUESS WHAT? 9TH MAY. EXAM -.- I AM STILL NOT PREPARE AT ALL. I am totally out of my time frame. All this schedule thing is driving me crazy. School homeworks are a lump and yes, Homeworks are VEXING enough. =P I think I am gonna do badly this time, what with all the distraction i myself couldn't get over it, ( I mean entertainment), and choir. I love choir, but i think it's because i couldn't manage my time properly that i am really in a hustle. I couldn't master the conducting movements with all the ictus and techniques, making sure that everyone can see you. I must be really sure of all the parts, which I don;t think I did put enough effort in that though i am trying my best at it. HAC is on the 7th and 8th. First day will be royal day, and the second, I will be taking a sijil for getting 10As. Like I said, All As is easy, put 10A+s is really hard. Though I gave up Mandarin, I still haven't reach my goal. All my marks except for Accounts, Moral, Physics and...

OK. I HAD REALLY REALLY SETTLE IT. I can feel it, this time, I felt extremely light and happy. =D So, all this bad mood didn't originate from him, you know, it was because I hadn't been able to to my best friend what I wanted her to know, There wasn't really anything at all, and I was sure about it when I talk to it to her. I admit I was so damn afraid of it all, but I feel that I really had to tell her. I don;t think I could drain in everything what Black Heart had said, and fortunately, I didn't. It felt good, I could finally be so sure for once, and permanently too. No, seriously, I can now tell Black Heart face to face that I really did not have any stupid feelings for him, as in .. Oh well, It all took only one month to settle, and I do thought that that thing was why I was so upset, and it turned out that it wasn't. Haha! =) YOR, WHY YOU NO TELL ME AR ? haha! OK, now that that's settle, there's one more thing. HEM! OK, don't think I don...

Oh My. Time flies. It;s already April, and May is coming. E.X.A.M.= = I can't find time to update my blog. Form 4 is really busy.All the homework and practices at school. Everyone is busy for HAC. The princess is coming. Syafinaz. I think so. Black Heart started to talk to me randomly. I don;t know what's she up to.Anyway, She has got herself hooked up with LKL, and she herself has an intense interest in her whoever-that-boy-is. I got to know too many people like Sunny in our class. Well, they ended up in cool war.Wth. Miss Gooi told me that Angkor Wat wasn't in a good state. Well, maybe. HE told me he was glad that their debate circle friends from Kl agreed to lent them the "Wai-Ka". I really hope he doesn't get lazy because of that. He;s crazy. Owh, BTW, I couldn't help but get sanguine whenever i thought of HAC Day 1, It's the Day ! ;) and I love KuKumiao and Monkey Girl day by Day. HEHEHE XDXD

Finished Chatting. People say that time changes things. It seems real. For 4 years, and today it,s the first time Angkor Wat talked to me about him being stress. Well, i won't take his word still, he's a strong guy. Anyway, today's chat made me realise that those old debate days(not really, just 2 months ago) had really changed my perception that sometimes when you hate a person, it comes to the fact that he or she is  way better than you because they do not care much. Being in the same class with him for almost 3 months has thought me that i have to find a way to stand up against him in the rightful way. I  have to learn how to follow up.He didn't do anything wrong, it was just that he's easy going made me wanted to compete with him, at least, he's one of the best.  And there's always Black Heart, I don't know, but i could feel that she isn't very happy that i could now actually talk to Angkor Wat normally. I used to hate him in the past,...

She said something. I felt nothing. She had instantly become nothing. The End. I didn't take notice of her. Asking somebody to buy books doesn't mean that I asked them to buy just for me to borrow, what I meant was helping me to buy. I know, you weren't in the best mood, you got involve with a small quarrel with Xiu2 that other day just because she didn't give you that sweet. So, I took it, because she gave it to me. I don't think that giving a sweet to somebody who is small-minded is worth it. In the morning, I wasn't in the mood to talk to you. I don't really know why, just claim that I didn't see Pacak. You like to destroy other's people hope, just because you couldn't get that thing doesn't mean I couldn't achieve it myself. From that day you do ask me never to use your sentence form your essay; I swear that I do never touch any of your books, unless I have to. Since our last argument, I had developed the habit of not talking to you ...

I wish i could just kick you out from my life at this moment. I cannot believe that after this 2 years, you do started to behave like that. I told you, i will apologize if i think i make a mistake. but i am really curious, what's the volume of your heart? I wanted very much to ask you weather i made you angry, weather i can apologize, but whenever i saw your face, your fake-way of reacting with your friends, my friends, i really can't make myself to do it. Maybe i was just too over sensitive. Your way of saying things which are untrue, fake is not once, but more than twice. I wasn't particular about that, just that you seem to have grown better at it. I wanted to tell somebody about it. After the KH session, i wasn't in the mood to talk at all. I wanted to tell someone, anybody who is willing to listen, but the thought that i should not react this way, i should not react the way as you do to my friends made me change my mind. I wanted to shout, talk loudly so that you...

Pacak is finally back today. I saw him at the same old place. Ping was somewhere near, so i joined her with a conversation. XD , just to look at him. During Mandarin, i used the alternate staircase and passed by his class. Nazmah was in his class, he was standing with his friend, who was hugging him at that time near the window. There was two window glass missing, so i was able to look through it, he saw me of course. I had already reached the level where i can look at him for at least 5 seconds without shifting my eyes. Today was about 3 seconds, the corridor was too short. :( Edward is now a 6t h Former. He came back yesterday. I guess he pretended not to see me. But good, i didn't feel a thing, zero- hystericalness . I wasn't sure at first, thinking that he was just back for his SPM cert or some forms to fill in. So, i asked Fish to check weather he was taking the Number 41 bus home. After school ended, i crossed the road to the bus stop. Yes, he was there, so he's...