.The Reverse

I do been listening to this song the whole day when it was 23 rd of October. It just ease my frustration. I love IU's voice, I love the melody, I love the feeling, I love the lyrics. It just let me get rid of that moment, to think properly of the situation that I am in. The tempo might be abit slow, It won't suit those that like rap songs or what, well. I just really love it. It made me cry anyway . J - -- ENGLISH -- If I turn My back like this If I Disappear like this I wouldn't come into bloom If I just look at you Like this It might be alright if I live without eyes Without looking, I see you Without listening, I hear you I'm being relieved by your breathing Just like a windflower I wish to reach you, but I can't I wish to embrace you but I couldn't Your fingertips have reached my heart Will you know after a long, long night? That our love is smilling in tears I wish to catch you, but I can't I wish to reach...

I went back to my Primary school. (After 3 Years) Today's Children's Day. ^^. First, I had to register myself at the Guardhouse, just like what I dreamt last time, but no pen's problem, just what to write, I Wrote my Chinese name(It should be in English), and I wrote my address Wrongly. ==ll, to think that I didn't even write it wrongly in any of my exams. Then, WP and I started with the canteen, the Computer room, I miss the shoe rack. Then went to the place where we used to have " Tiao Yuan ." The sand wasn't err…fertile? But the plank is still there. The students there had gathered at the hall, they have 十大守则.WOW; it's longer than Code of Conduct. Then we visited the toilet, right, it's indeed better then our school now, at least the button -flush work:@. We ran into my form teacher, Miss Teh. She's so skinny, worst than WP, but at least her taste for dresses has indeed improved. A LOT. Then, I accompanied WP to take the video of her cute c...

I woke up late, I do been dreaming about him again. I forgot what it is about. Mum had asked me if I had dreamt of falling off staircase or Taufu again. Right, she's the cause of all this mess, partly. Breakfast, mum asked if I wanted so much to be in a relationship ==. I just kept quiet. After sweeping, I texted him, just to make sure he was back to his old self. Apparently he wasn't, and the messages, it's not him. Maybe he didn't get what I meant yesterday. Concentrated to Diluted. I had to use food analogy to explain. It sounds like joking, but I know he won't stand any nonsense from me. So, maybe my temper did flare up a little, but I was sure it wasn't as bad as him, I tried to control everything. The messages I type doesn't have to be like this if he wasn't in this mood.My fault. I admit. Can I say it hurts? It does then, but I can't do anything with it, I can't tell him, because if I do ,that won't be fair. It's not even up to p...

I feel so bad after what just happen. I don't know. I think I just broke him into pieces. I don't know what to think or do right now, came running here . I can't visualise what he would be like right now. I just felt really disgusting, I made him feel like this again. He's hating me. I know it. Mum came in to my room, and i was in the middle of holding my Erhu and Texting him at the same time. She wanted to see what i was typing. So i don't think i could keep it any longer, so i just told her. I admitted that i like him back too, i told her what was my answer to him. She doesn't know that we are now in it.(Sort of), and she just say that she doesn't want me to start now. Reasons, i don;t think i will list it here. I don't know. I feel like i am back to 27th DEC again.

Just wanna write this before I start : 1. It's Dead without a Beep. 2. It's meaningless without words. 3. It's empty without you. @@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@ His phone was out of Battery, so My phone is totally useless. WP and Ping had Texted me, luckily. :). I spent my day In my room, turning on the radio. There's going to be a choir practice this Sunday, and I might be staying extra 1 hour. I don't realy feel good about staying to be with him. Of course, I want to, but I wonder if it's right to do so. I really want to do it the right way. I want my parents to believe in me (Don't know why am I thinking About this...==), so that next time, i mean when the time comes, i could tell them without having to worry. I was thinking if he could understand. Edward wasn't a problem anymore, i think i had gotten over it. :), so now is really my Parents's Part that I have to solve. I accept it's rebellious, but ,Not really, if i want to. Th...

I came across a picture. Was it really the end? Am I hating that person ? or What? Tut.

Today was bored, I reread my brother's komsas. So, until I was logged into my blog and read about my friends post.... I could guess who was it through her words, though I should have known about it. At first, when I get to know that fact , just few moments ago, I was a little sad, because I was the last to know. But, I got my mind set right, I shouldn't be fidgeting about it, it's completely unnesscary and childish if I acted that way, so I push that thought to the corner of my mind. I totally understand her about why she wanted to do this, because I am in her shoes too. So, I think I really need to make a statement here: TO :You-Know-It's-Meant-For-You Please don't misunderstand that I was angry, I might be abit moody, but I am definitely ok even though I just got to know it recently. Maybe it's because we had been friends since ages that i thought that we should share everything together, but now I think what you did is right and i don't blame you. Sorry i...