.The Reverse

It was my birthday, maybe half an hour ago. We cheered with Milk on the 12 midnight yesterday and I receive presents and wishes from many, facebook messages, chat messages, texts, calls, live, which I got earlier.  Ed , thanks for all the 4 wishes and your attempt on keeping awake up till 12 just to be the first one to wish me. I appreciated it. MG, YiJo,IQ 200 , I love all your presents, especially the one with Manuel Bandeira's litle poem, which I am obsessed with as always. Thanks. WP,FISH, who gave me live wishes. Vetagen, thanks for being appropriately nice and the wish, you're the only one that call anyway. Thanks=) CF, I don't blame you for not doing so, because I understand what trouble would it bring to you, but thanks for remembering to text me and wish me. it's important to me that you haven't forgotten. Well, I was happy with everything, there's just only one thing that bothers me though : OK, I decided, It's not really a bid ...

My cousins are here, they reached yesterday. They all seem grown up, i haven;t seen them for months, two of them,anyway, tomorrow's my special day, but there are a few things I want to highlight to myself. 1. Many people wished me before today. Wen Hui, IQ 200, Diniesh. Haha. Today, with WP's and Mei Ggi's. Mei Ggi and IQ 200 gave me presents and I like them very much. Thanks so much =) 2. Hazard decided to give me a treat too. Which when I saw that he was thinking of ways not how to do it in public, I just told him not to waste his time and A wish would be good Enough. It hurts me to see him having to do everything so discretely and you know how i hate being somebody's burden. 3. I made it today. I didn;t on my chat yet, and I didn't speak about anything that's out of topic today. Good. 4. CK was weird, I wore a dress last week to class, and today he asked : " Why didn't you where that dress? you look better in that ." LOL. and Paca...

Yes. It really does. It's so damn. When it happen, something shuts off inside me. When I'm choking, why are you even OK ?

I have been dreaming quite alot lately. This time, there were 2 dreams. I don't really know the reason behind it.  Why are we even couple =.= ? And Hazard's a badminton player, BADMINTON, imagine that. I don't know if he really is in real life, haha. I think he was trying to tell me that he won the game because he had used his love to win the game. I wasn't just assuming, it really was his message that he sent to me in my dream. The other one was, we were on the run, of course separately, and Kar Keat was in that dream too, but his parents were all very scary which I have no idea why my dream had portrayed them as WANTED. Anyway, it's still the dream that always pull me back into the water when I started to lift my head out of the water. Seriously, I think it didn't hurt much any more, I mean if I think I wasn't, though I can still feel it, but Pacak still makes me smile as always, =) and I realise that LKL was a real good comedian, it;s good when his ...

Yes. I am so disappointed with you. I never know that I would one day. Now that it did. I could 't seem to express it very well. It's like you had changed, which was in my expectation. I can't accept all your excuses every time any more. I change when people change. You suddenly change your track and I can't tail along. I used to, but now I can't any more. I follow my heart, I believe in them. I truly do. I can't say all the good things any more. I am really sorry. I tried but I can't. I can't lie in order to lie when it's you. I am sure you would understand, it's just that maybe you never give a second thought about it. You just simply babble out and never care any more. I didn't stand up for myself because I didn't want to argue because I know it would if I had. I was trying to pace up with you, but it turns out that I was too slow and too late to begin. I was trying to ignore that what you said or did had deeply changed my percepti...

It's the magical month of every year. Things always happen to me in February, if I read back my posts. Haha. Well well, Chinese New Year is on it's way, I can't wait for it, but it means I am getting one year older very soon. =) Old. Yesterday was my Lunar Birthday, I had forgotten, so had mum. My parents quarrel again, whatever. I just hope they fix it up by CNY. and Guess what, I missed out sitting with Pacak today at Usaha Jaya. WTH. If only I didn't switch my place or what, he do be sitting RIGHT NEXT TO ME. ARGH!!! Nevertheless, like they said, he's become rounder, so his side looks are getting really good looking. XDXD PS : I really think that sometimes Pacak was just trying to have fun mesmerizing girls like me with his smile.        I think he knows that I admire him. Haha! Whatever. I have done my oral scripts. Finally. All those editing and all freaked my eyes out. Haha. I'm just a little worried about my oral, together with Intan as m...