.The Reverse

Its September. Then We have October. Soon it's going to be November. it means SPM. I figured out that the only way I can make my way through next year is to have excellent, I mean SUPERB grades, which won't be achievable if I keep on being idle. Being like this, because I only have 3 A+, which is really not sufficient, and really difficult for me to go on to apply for scholarships. It sucks, I know. What to do, serves me right. So, It means I will be neglecting my blog. I will write soon. Wish me luck!! Till Then. ;)

I am left with 10 days before Trial. I am dead for sure. Haven't revise alot of subjects, the killing Sejarah, Chemistry, Biology, Physics. I didn't even practice Accounts and Addmaths. Its just suicidal. Eventhough I shed tears in front of M.Gooi ( unexpectedly, because she "provoke"my weakest part in me), it never change a thing. What i wish was that I won't have to care so much of my result or worry that I won't be able to give acceptable reasons for my horrible grades. Let s say, since that slap when I was 7, i know I have to get good grades, uptill form 3 i do it for myself, though its harder to hide that you are doing it for your parents as you get older. In form 4, I loss it. Totally. I don't know why do I have to be good, yeah, for my future, don't have to worry about life. this that, carefree eternity, but thats not how I want to achieve it. Maybe its my fault that I hadn't been able to solve my dillema. Too late. I lack the will. And,...

So. TRIAL IS DAUNTING!!! I am still lost in the midst of laziness and dwellings. I lost my will. Damn it. Trial is just as important as my SPM slip. What am I going to do if I don't strive ? Anyway, THE SPANISH that was suppose to be hosted my my family has finally in my school. ( 2 weeks ago). He's kind of good - looking. Ok, just still considered acceptable in the range of handsome, but not very up to it =P ( I know I am choosy ). I have been trying to talk to him for weeks, but he seemed to have develop into a  girl-phobic boy. Whatever, I managed to have a chit-chat with him while waiting for Zakuan. So, Wan Pei and Wen Hui went nuts. -.- For the day. Fish and I were stuck together like unwanted cats, and here's the photo of the day. With My Best Friend and Guille.  Last week had been susceptible enough. ( I wonder if it is this word ). First, I received my Confirmation SMS text from AFS that I am short-listed for the YES Semester Program. I AM SUPER SUPER S...

It turned out alright. I am so so so so happy. All it took was just some internal wifi-ing in the blogging world. Of course we will always be Best friends ;) I was so afraid that I would forget about the 2 days in KL. So starting with a really simple and economic journeyon 5th July, we took the 5.15 MaraLiner . Somehow the journey that was suppose to be 4 hours took up as long as 6 hours. Thanks to MaraLiner that for the first 3 hours, I was still stuck in Perak, what with all the stopping, picking up passengers in Palik Buntar and who-knows-where in Ipoh. I was suppose to read up something, and manage to finish 2 thesis, and facts and figures. Thanks for the Head Light dad =) We reached at 11 plus and guess what, I slept at 2.30am.  6th July. Woke up at 6am. I have to catch the 6.41 Commuter from Kampung Batu in KL to Shah Alam. 15 stops for 1 hour. Caught the Rapid Bus and went to Quality Hotel. Registered at 9.15 am. Name tags were given in the form of masking tape, Muni...

I wanted to talk about my two days at KL. Then, when i logged in ( finally) i think i should write about something that is more important to me than about AFS. I trust we know what's going on. First, its not a broken friendship. Its still not broken. To me. If you thinks it is. I am sorry. Really sorry because I never wanted all this to end up in this bad shape. Maybe you are right that we are pushing each other away without us knowing how far we have gone, how bad it is until now.If only you do give it a chance to make it right again, at least just let me stick back all the pieces.  I want you to know that I understand both of you as a couple. I do. I know like maybe I am suppose to comment on both of you like others did. Snickering, saying stupid stuffs about your relationship, but why should I ? When I don;t think there's nothing wrong until this stage. I think I don;t really know how to. Second, I don't have a progress to embark on. I thought I explained to you. W...

First of all. Let's start with the bad. I mean why am I in a bad mood. How would you feel when one of your closest friend could not even spare you.Iron Man, How am I suppose to tell you what i really know when Iron Woman is so powerful ? Hmm. If you're jealous, fine. You know I didn't really meant to do anything to even trigger that piece inside you. Narrow minded ? I can't help reminding myself to not use some other rude words. I don;t feel like using it just yet. I can feel it. I just ignore. It might not be what you think. I know, sometimes people like me gets driven crazy by emotions and fear. Then why did you even change, I might change too, but i am sure i change in what i share with you. Why ? Was it because of my name that happened to be under your scrolling finger tips on the screen ? Out of the blue you suddenly care so much about this lame name ?  I can;t tell you how I wish you would know what another half said. It's not something bad, but just a -let-...

Simple Jots 1. I DROPPED out of top 10, ended 16. WTF. 2. AFS State level interview ended last Tuesday. I hope I did well enough to make it to The national level. 3. The star is still in my pencil case, which I was surprise it didn't got mash up -.- 3. Going to have a sale on Sports Day. Dorayaki, Pudding. Please make A good sale. i really want to help my team get some profit so that they can have a good year . 4. I am getting really hectic. Fear.