.The Reverse

Christmas Is Over, meaning a New Year is going to be here soon. 2013 had been great, awesome in fact, with so many surprises this year and heart wrenching moments as well, which i will never ever forget and labelled it as life lessons. I had been spending my last whole week in Penang. I love that town, Balik Pulau. 1. I finally met my 2 year old cousin, Pi Wan. OMG. HE IS JUST SO DAMN CUTE that i eerily wish he is my son already already. Haha! The way he tried to mimic his sisters blabbering, calling me GuGu and all, though i corrected him and he instantly corrected himself, the way he jumps up frantically like he's in shock whenever i come, never running away from a big cousin sister like me. Happy Birthday Pi Wan! :) 2. I went around the Whole Balik Pulau in fact. There was one spot at the paddy field where you could see 10 eagles soaring high up together to prey for the egrets. There's a newly build Horse Station at Sg. Burong. I SAW A REALLY TINY PONY. Too tiny in fact ...

Came back from KL. Dance Practice for YES2014 was awesome at the Temple of Fine Arts at Brickfields. My group did Ribbon Dance. My group members were great too. Stayed with Angie hosted by Priscilla's house. We had such great and funny moments. I remembered the day where I got lost with Angie in Mid Valley, and how we dress up in the midnight just to take picture at the Christmas Tree. Thanks so much for the highly expensive Christmas present, I really love it. And the picture of course. We chalked my hair, OMG. Our conversations, not pure at all. They were so unprofessional that they screwed up my hair, haha. Me : How can you do that to my hair, he's my dearest. Prisci : Why ? Me : He's my Hubby Prisci : How was your first night then ? Me : So Hairy Still, We realised we have all the same friends all around us, be it in school or DP. So, just move on then. I still get sad sometimes, damn it. But i feel awesome all the time,  because DP was just too aw...

All these emptiness is haunting me. Technically, Post-SPM life should be wonderful, but it wasn't what I expected. The first few weeks was fun, outing with friends. Penang Trip, Hunger Games, Dating with my friend. Gradually, Its time to get back on track, focus on my trip to USA. There's nothing wrong about the preparations about the trip, though I admit that there were still some complications which was inevitable. I have been dying to tell my parents that everything was a lie. Their lies. What with ABC things that I can do after my SPM, but it looks like i couldn't except for one thing. Going out with friends. That is the only one they agreed because they took that experience away from me many many many times that I hate it so much, because every time I have to lie to my friends, pretend I didn't get the invitation, or vaporise myself from all the fun. The major one, KDrama. OK, i know they are bad stuffs, but they are just for the sake of entertainments. Don't...

SPM. It's OVER. I don't really want to think about it actually. At least 3 months from now. And I will have to start preparing for my trip to the USA. So, yeah. I just do not know what to say. Just, I 'm glad it's finally over. And i really hope it's FINE. Mind me sharing some pictures? Since I am lazy to really write back all the stories. The below will tell. Traditional Day. The first picture when we bang into our teachers.  My fellow Indian friends. I got my Punjabi from them by the way.  Last day at school before SPM. My fellow comrades in the same Bilik.  Our favourite Stair Dad's Birthday.  

Exactly ONE MONTH before SPM. HOHO. And I just started locking myself in the room straight after dinner. I don't know if this is too late. So, October, Please be with me. So some simple Jots. 1. Choir Gathering. Due to our terrific sales, and money management, we can afford to have quite a different Gathering, just what Miss Edna wanted, no fast foods, and different ambiance. Prepare the Awards that Miss Edna always reminded, and performance of When I was Your Man. The day before it, WP, KuKuMeow, Dharshana and I went for shopping. ( MY FIRST SHOPPING, LOL ) Straight from the school right after our Trial. We comb the bags, shoes, accessories. We finally have a Guess Purse for her, and a Bracelet. PASTEL ;) Lovely. 2. Orientation Day aka A MUSICAL DAY. Hah! It was Miss Edna's wish too. She wanted to cut short next year's audition. ( Of course, we have extra budget ) It was a pinky event. Full of songs. It might be our last event. and i am totally going to miss it. ...

Its September. Then We have October. Soon it's going to be November. it means SPM. I figured out that the only way I can make my way through next year is to have excellent, I mean SUPERB grades, which won't be achievable if I keep on being idle. Being like this, because I only have 3 A+, which is really not sufficient, and really difficult for me to go on to apply for scholarships. It sucks, I know. What to do, serves me right. So, It means I will be neglecting my blog. I will write soon. Wish me luck!! Till Then. ;)

I am left with 10 days before Trial. I am dead for sure. Haven't revise alot of subjects, the killing Sejarah, Chemistry, Biology, Physics. I didn't even practice Accounts and Addmaths. Its just suicidal. Eventhough I shed tears in front of M.Gooi ( unexpectedly, because she "provoke"my weakest part in me), it never change a thing. What i wish was that I won't have to care so much of my result or worry that I won't be able to give acceptable reasons for my horrible grades. Let s say, since that slap when I was 7, i know I have to get good grades, uptill form 3 i do it for myself, though its harder to hide that you are doing it for your parents as you get older. In form 4, I loss it. Totally. I don't know why do I have to be good, yeah, for my future, don't have to worry about life. this that, carefree eternity, but thats not how I want to achieve it. Maybe its my fault that I hadn't been able to solve my dillema. Too late. I lack the will. And,...