.The Reverse

~A dialogue Between Me and My Parents.~ Nixon: Daddy, Suzanne got stunned by someone at the playground. A malay guy. Me: ( wth look....==!) Dad: Suzanne, just remember this, whatever happens,don't let your parents be the last one to know you are dating. Me: I know. But i need time to think how to tell your this news if i meet one. Mum: Don't keep us out of the secret. Dad: But it's best if you avoid it. Me: Can i ask how should i tell you all when i have a boyfriend? I can't just bring him back and say " this is my boyfriend " and give your a heart attack right? Dad : Just let us Know. Find a Way. Mum: Just tell us " Mum, Dad, SOMEBODY 'S WOO-ING ME ." Me: Ok...hmmmm....Deal. =.=lll

Holidays for the new year started :) But this year is different. Homeworks during new year. Less angpau this year, because both my aunts are not coming back home. And I have a diet-like plan so that i won't get fat this year. I used to gain 6kg in just one week of new year many years ago, that's how my 40kg appeared. =( I admit I am a little excited this year because i would have the chance to have a little secret chat with Kelwin. According to him, he needs help @@! in whatever matter is it...love matter mostly. He said it's private. =.= BUT I AM A YEAR YOUNGER THAN HIM, and i am NOT EVEN 15 yet, how can i help him? It's weird, why not Ke Xin? she's born on the same day with me, a few hours older, and I don't doubt she's having one too. This year, my favorite number will be 5. There's some reasons behind it. But mostly it's because i was in the 5th place in the last Form 2 exam. Btw, jacob-face is also in Form 5.^^ So that makes two reasons...and fo...

Somebody has been telling about their dreams, and i have mine too. First, i dreamt that my friend's father was injured in a cycling competition. Second, i dreamt that my schoolmate told me that she likes some guy. The second dream was somehow weird. I think it's a reality. Gosh. One of my friend was having a bizarre dream. Telling me that he doesn't want it to be real. Maybe it's an omen, maybe it's just a stupid dream. Mostly, unreal. You even hit your head when you were sighing about it, God is telling you not to be stupid. He secures everything. Hey, every thing's going to be alright. Just focus on now, don't worry about the future, just guard your property well, don't let it fall out of your grasps. If you need anything, i will try to help you. :) That's all. Good Luck!

Today was AWESOMEEEE :) 1. I saw JACOB-FACE at the koperasi and without him seeing me. 2. I saw Sotong-Guy in a white T. 3. I PONTENG PJ today with fish. 4. I managed to know my blood type might be B or AB. 5. I am free of HIM. 6. I kept thinking about someone's SMS and Sound.

Today's the day. Just 2 more hours to go. I made 2 wishes to a Firefly=) One for him, and one for myself. I was thinking i should text him once, but it was a no, because i really cannot VISUALIZE myself texting to that number again, so i turned my wishes to the bug. I can't believe i COUNT DOWNED yesterday, to that day? Rolling in my bed before i went to sleep, just for his day?Gosh, I shouldn't have. How come his nickname kept appearing when i never wanted to see it? and the number? It's my second buddy's position in form 2. ==lll Looks like God doesn't want me to forget him just yet. =( Kelwin's worried. His having a competiter, quite strong. He knows piano, Kelwin doesn't. But BOTH of you are handsome, so All the best to you from me.=)

For all of the time that I tried for your smile For making you think I was worth the while So your love love love love love would be mine For sending you flowers and holding your hand that no one was there to take a stand but the love love love made us blind and I'm so sorry that I hurt you sorry that I fell through sorry I was falling in love with you I'm sorry that I came true but sorry doesn't turn back time For all that I have done to you I wish that I could make it alright so sorry that I loved you Sorry that I needed you sorry that I loved you sorry that I held you tight and I'm sorry for making you love me and saying goodbye for being the one that taught you how to cry It was love love love and it passed us by for giving you every thing that you dreamed for taking it back when i fled the scene sorry love for wasting your time and I'm so sorry that I hurt you sorry that I fell through sorry I was falling in love with you I'm sorry that I came true but sor...

Ok. Whatever, my mind pulled me over to my blogging world. I am glad to say the missing stopped. Just what I wanted. =) After 2 days, it will be his birthday. I am not wishing him in person or by any communication means. It will just be only me. From me. From my heart. I can now say that I don't love him anymore like I used to everyday at school. I am not saying that I hate him, I ain't. But from now on he will just be something that USED TO be my most important property. He will be a friend. I might miss you again, but not long. Because, lately, I have others in mind. XD

I saw the show…and I thought about him again. I said I survived, but that doesn't mean I am free. Although he never appear in my diary anymore, his nickname kept popping in. I found myself looking to his old class, and hallucinations do happen, I always thought I saw him, and thought it was him. I had class at Kamar Syura , and of course, the place we used to sit kept setting my mind to replay back the scene of our first and best meeting. I really want to stop thinking about him, I did, my problem is I can't stop start thinking about him. You do have seen my status, whether he sees it or not, I don't care and never care. I just wanted myself to be open, I don't want it forever my secret . Every time I see my friend having a great time, I thought about him too. I am not jealous, I just felt a bit sorry for what I had gone through and why I couldn't preserve it. Maybe it's because I don't have any preserving techniques…yet. I know I shouldn't , but I m...

20 days after we ended. Hmmm…it was just 2 weeks and 5 days…haha. How slow the time crawls. Until now I still can't believe that it wasn't even 1 month. I survived. =) Recently, beside recovering and mending, I have been working on my schoolwork. My table used to be the tidiest in the living room, but now, it's a complete 180 degrees turn. =.=My work become from a piece to a pile. There are so many things to occupy my mind this year, I really don't want to think what will happen when PMR is around the corner. Maybe I should say…my First Secondary 3 Exam? This coming March. Despite that both my mind and hands are busy, my phone is busy too. > <! HKC introduced my number to a secondary 5 guy. So much for my attempts to not try to think of that figure, and that person's name is call Cheng.C.L.,besides. He DOESN't KNOW my name. He kept sending me pictures of him, fortunately( ^^), my phone can neither receive nor send pictures. But I felt that I need to know ...

Nothing much, life still different without him, except for that newest scandal...== Just that why do i have to fall sick today? I was still fine when i woke up at 6 in the morning, just with a minor cough, that's all. But the temperature kept rising until now, REALLY SICK. T^T. I was still determined to act i was ok during sivik, but it doesn't help, i have to go and visit the toilet as an excuse to move around and not stay in the same spot. As for something a little extra, i accidently stumbled across one of my friend's blog. Hehe^^, no wonder all his status in facebook was really sendimental and emotional. Better not let him know i saw all his written feelings...XD May God Bless ME and get well soon....:)

Today's task ~Learn to control my emotions...and thoughts. It was morning and i turned on my phone. The phone beeped after about 3 seconds. It was a message from an unknown guy. I only know his name. But somehow i have a feeling that it might be him. I tried not to think of it. Maybe it was just a thought, because somehow, i know that he had some problem with his phone. I still need more time. so that i can stop thinking about him.

OMG~ I was selected for BENDAHARI....Again... 2009... 2010... 2011... It's a miracle that nothing had happened to me for the last two years...and i STILL haven't buy my insurance yet... >

1 JAN 2011 It's the first day of a NEW YEAR. J I haven't start to bring up my hopes to me of what I am going face, how many things are there for me to face and the main thing, HOW TO FACE IT? As the afternoon session's were over, morning session will take over and that means a new life. Starting from now, many things will start occupying my mind, exams…schools…friends…and the fate I had just encountered last December. Before today, I had made up my mind that I will TRY MY BEST NOT TO…or NEVER plunged into that kind of thing again until I am ready and completely free from the strangle of his memories. I had faced what fate had destined me to, I had learned that we will never be able to change what are we suppose to meet and who are we suppose to meet , what will, and what might not happen, except for your mind, your thoughts and your action towards the future, and It really does not do use good to DWELL IN DREAMS. It's New Year, and I had the chance to step into my scho...