.The Reverse

I started my day when my 6am alarm clock rang, i wasn't feeling very well, the running nose and sore throat, maybe a little heat, it made it worse when i just wanted to call him. But I did call anyway, I tried to control my running-voice , but i think it didn't work. During the afternoon, my friends went out for lunch and i stayed at Hui Guan alone, waiting for JW to return with McD for our lunch. Texted him after I finished my lunch. But he didn't reply immediately, i thought that he didn't bring his phone to school. So, i was about to leave my phone alone when it rang. His name appeared on the screen. I left the room as they were still having lunch, and secondly, I can't talk in there. I was really surprised that he called me, and even more surprise of the way he had started the conversation, haha. After about 2minutes, i started to hear his friend's voice, imagine how shock i was when i heard what they say, but i suppose they don't know, only one of his f...

I changed my blog templates. WP had urged me to change it, so that Fish, her and me can have a set of 3 cute blogs. Thanks to Fish for the Marvellous Header. :D 1) I woke up at 6 in the morning to give him a good luck call, but he was having his breakfast and couldn't pick up the call. So, i just text him. A few days more, HeheXD. 2) Cough+Sore throat+Flu .I have a feeling I am going to get sick. Great. Mum and Dad are going to nagged. 3) Please, Stop asking me to Admit.> < I am a bad liar.==

I was a little crazy after hours of tuition and debate. So, I went in to my Memory Capture's Folder, and saw quite a number of pictures that I like. There wasn't much in form1, but many in form 2 and form 3. So, maybe i should post it to recharge your memories. HoHo.XD In Form 2. I wanna say thank you to Wenzy . Hoho. Old Xiu Xiu :) Ignore that Finger. == Form 3 I guess it's all in choir where we took pictures in form 3 .Lol.

Headache. I was so tired that i slept in the car when I came home form Hui Guan. I did so badly during Full-Run that I couldn't even bring myself to ask for an off-day. But it felt nice when he texted while i was practicing, i really wanted to keep my mind out of debate , even if it's just for a while. Though I did threaten him that i will kill him if he didn't "disturb" me. XD. He didn't come for the competition yesterday, bad and good, bad because i wouldn't be able to meet him, and good because, it's the first time that the competition does not have an audience. Haha, what a waste. Jot 1. HE had pointed out that my first time going overseas is actually with him. 2. Dad had told me that if he's going, I have to keep out Question Marks XD 3.Owh, I hope TP won't be another Vetagen.

It's been 11 days. 11days. Seems like I managed my mood REALLY REALLY WELL. OK, Quite. ~.~. I feel guilty for taking other people's right .   I don't think I should be going, though i have nothing to worry, because the teacher had asked me to go. Her tone had turned from INVITING to ORDERING.@@~  Yesterday had been a weird night. I chatted with L. I have lots of things to ask and he has lots of things to ask back. I had been busy arranging some debate details. It's really important, Made so many phone calls. After I thought that I had settle everything, I realise I forgot to call him. And, he's already asleep, wth. No choice, messaged him to call me straight away when he wakes up. I watch New Moon for awhile, and went to bed at 1.40. I was unconscious, but really glad that I DID HEAR THE CALL, and asked what I wanted to ask. Slept back, and woke up at about 6, after that stupid dream. I hate that dream. It's just so weird that he had texted me never ...

Dear Zi Yu , I can't say how happy I am that you Doodled me. So glad that I am one of your masterpiece. I admit it's cute.XD By my beloved KukuMiao. :) I really love it. PS : I will treat this as My Coming Christmas Present from you. XD By the way, I can't post your masterpiece just like that, just so that your copyrights are being honoured. :)

21st NOVEMBER 2011 ISSUE : OFFICIALLY 2 MONTHS CRACKS : 1 SURPRISES : 2 NOTES : 3 GIFTS : 4 FAVOURITE MOMENTS : 5 ( 19th SEP, 3rd OCT,AGM, NILAM, 18th NOV) PHONE CALLS with MY DAD's : 6 times DIALLED : UNCOUNTABLE PICK UP :  UNCOUNTABLE WEIRD COMMENTS : 2 WISH : Stay Close, for as long as we could.

17th November 2011 Real sad. My folder of songs was deleted by that pen drive. Wth. He told me that he's maths paper wasn't that bad. and tomorrow, he's going to give me surprise. > < 18th November 2011 I went to FuJianHuiGuan at 8. I was late actually, after choosing what to wear. I never choose my attire actually, but since my mum will nag about it, so it's better that i do, and i left with the butterfly pin.I went and had my breakfast before going there.  I was on the alert mode the whole time but i don;t know why. Wished WJ happy birthday and then settled the names of the debaters. CW almost didn't make it, and Angkor Wat, forget it.==. So, i had to ask WJ to be the judge, including myself, though i really really don't think i should be one. Four minutes after i sat at the suppose-to-seat-place,WJ had patted me to tell me something, I ignored her at first, the she patted harder, so I turned around and realized that....the surprise itself had arri...

Today is the last day of school. Morning : Pacak went up twice on stage to get his prize and the name of his grup, (Geng Bas Sekolah)? and Grup Skup .== : Debate session ended early. I got fed up actually. So,I accompanied Fish with her guy, acting as the third person there. L told me it ends at 12.30. But I didn't go and search. : Meeting. I realize i do been missing out. I really don't want to be it . : I dreamt about MJ yesterday. I was still snapping with him for not picking up his friends. I can't believe it's her. : I acted with Miss Gooi. HEHE~ Support! : Last day, lousy. Jot : Countdown : 4 more days

Love her So much.

His exam had started, my debate had started. Holidays are coming, one more day. I hate this Holiday. I am going to hate it. Shit. I had already forgot about Pacak, I couldn't recognise him, couldn't remember about having to catch a glimpse of him. Maybe he's going to be like A. Well, maybe it's good then. After all , his going to leave next year. But I admit padang won't be much fun to look at. XD. Choir practice ended "again". It went well in Alor Setar, minus that that pengarah didn't even look , and the microphone wasn't even on, and we have to stand for almost an hour. == Now that he will be gone for the moment, I have alot of things to think about, plus he isn't going to stalk for almost a month. Shit, I don't care. Bad mood. Erm...alright. The fear is coming back. It's going to be 2 months, nearly. 5 more days. Can't wait. I can't wait to make it sure that it is going to be 2 months after that almost breaking period...

If I have a camera of my own, or even a phone that could snap pictures, I do be happier for today. After my debate, while i waited for my dad to pick me up, i saw 2 cats. One of them must be a male, the other is a female. =.=. Em, i don't really know what were they doing, so i started to watch them,. The male tried to get closer to the female one, after about 2 to 3 minutes, they were head to head, nose to nose, and neck to neck. Hahaha!!! That scene carried out more than 5 minutes, Ho ho! So SWEET!! <3 <3  . Then, the funny part was that when the male shook it's body I don't know, sort of stepped over the female. Mating huh? Then, they freed each other, the male walked away to find food i guess, or grooming.XD the female then sat down in such a GRACEFUL. I really have to use this word, and watched out for her new partner? BEST SCENE FOR 11.11.11 LIKE, LIKE, LIKE!!!

Yesterday was the last day I am going to meet him at school. Unless you count in those days for exams . And because he was absent now, I could finally pin up my hair at the centre, apparently i won't if he's going to be at school. Secondly, I decided not to pass by the area, i need to get use that it's going to happen again, that same sensation and hallucinations, haha. Thirdly, I might as well get going no matter what happens. maybe it won't be that bad. :) Jot : Stress... > <

1) I finally gave him one gift back. One not really good gift, but that's the least i could give if you were to ask a person who doesn't have a taste for choosing gifts like me. I had been thinking for almost one month what to do with those notes though. :) 2 ) I forgot to wish him Good Luck. Damn > < 3) He had said : " The person you want to see is right beside you," Huh? XP

Thought of today : I realize if I were to keep myself really really busy,        I could actually go sanguine internally if it's from IQ200. :)

Well, I don't know what to say. Each day gets worse and worse. Debate just really destroyed my mood.Angkor Wat and the 2 other. Damn. Some how, i should have been okay by now, but some part of me seem missing. I could go online almost every night and chatted a while with him, but it doesn't really full fill that unknown part. It's the first time I realize I miss him more than usual. Shit. Weekends and Holidays made it worse. I shouldn't be feeling like this. I was the one who had asked for it and now i should learn to be content with it. It's like something is slipping away. Empty.Greedy.Frustrated. Disoriented. Dull. Grey.Utcut.

It's already November. School was really bored, but just like what Banana Man said, we came because home was bored too, and house chores . Choir have started, I just love it. Leong had said that The sopranos had improve alot. Hehe. XD . Having alot of interaction with Miss Gooi lately, we kept running to her office to ask if there's anything we could help. Cikgu Zaini had commented about WP, fish and Me about being good wives in the future. Sweat. But, that day i was really proud, he had pointed out that i was the one being the MC most of the time, and i was the only one decorating that dusty musty cupboard in Bilik Multimedia. But, thanks to my friends that helped me. :) As i have said, November. That means December, JingBian, then...well, i don't know what will happen. I don't think i am going to think much about that, just leave it to faith. When he told me he was going to be there too, i was really happy. Though my mum's warning kept popping in, but I don'...