.The Reverse

Today is the 29th August 2015, and I am leaving for USM Health Campus at Kubang Kerian, Kelantan tomorrow. The registration day is on Independence day . So, This would probably be my last post before starting my uni life. First of all, it freaks me out. Or so to speak, it scares the hell out of me. Before getting the offer for USM, I was afraid that I wasn't given my preferred course. Now that I've got what I wanted, I am terrified of it. Honestly,I really hope this isn't one big mistake in my first leap into adulthood. I really want to make sure I really could do it. Becoming a Dentist , in many people's opinion, is that it's a guarantee of your future, and an optimum level of work stress. That maybe on the outside, but the hard work and commitment that you have to put up with is definitely not as easy as it seems. I have talked to a few of my seniors and they definitely did feel almost the same like me. I have been making a point of not really telling the worl...

I came back from the YES Conference 6.0 held by the one and only YES Alumni Malaysia in Taiping, Perak, It was a brilliant conference, even though it feels more of a camp sometimes. Still, it's worth it---meeting my YES ohana, meeting and making new friends, gaining and sharing experience. It was a 3 full days of awesomeness and memories. Day 1, 21st August 2015 It was all a rush when my friend Munis, who was supposed to get both of us to Butterworth Sentral by 1.15pm. I was having my shower when he called and said : change of plan, his uncle will be picking us up in a pick-up van. We arrived at Butterwoth Sentral on time( there were schools on Friday, i forgot ) despite the traffic. We redeemed our tickets and waited for Ash, who was supposed to join us. He was late, the bus was supposed to leave at 1.35pm, and Munis had to plead the bus driver to wait. It appeared that Ash was delayed for 30 minutes by the ferry.  We arrived at Kamunting Bus Station by 2.45pm, and...

Please read at your own risk as there may be some changes as the years keep rolling. :) It's been awhile right? Well, I have been busy with--papers, printer, computers ( I am using 3 computer devices, lol). All this just for the preparations before I finally start my varsity year. So, I will just write up about what are the pre-USM preparations for my brother and future juniors, just to feed my blog. Date of IPTA Offer 2015/2016 Announcement: 11th August 2015, 12.00 pm. Step 1: ACCEPT THE OFFER that you have in mind BEFORE the DEADLINE.  Remember to make sure that this will be what you will see after accepting the offer. It's Important.  Step 2: PRINT out your OFFER LETTER. Sometimes, IPTA will send you the offer letter by mail. But for my case which is USM Kubang Kerian, they have stated that they won't be mailing us, so we have to print it instead. Step 3: PRINT all the DOCUMENTS ATTACHED in your OFFER LETTER WEBPAGE. They usually include Buku Panduan...

The call in July from Chen Long came earlier than I thought. In Fact, it came the very next 2 days. This time, he wanted me to accompany him to Seberang Jaya for shopping. I mean,, no big deal, but I find the reason for his invitation funny. haha. The point was, i thought I would ignore it. Because, I didn't want to have to say no to him. But I had another round of counselling from mum, and i finally realize that my answer could be so simple. I realized my problem was i had always had the wrong concept that if you want to be with somebody, there's always a trial period, or in other words, a trial period at the start of every relationship or the getting- to- know- each- other phase. I was wrong . You see, if you want to be with somebody, that means, you have the  desire to make it last, for as long as it can, till the very last moment. There shouldn't be an excuse saying that you can always pick another one if one does not suit you. No, you've got to gamble and pla...

It's been a lazy and crazy week, since I am learning how to drive. But  Chen Long has bugged me twice, and now I am confused how should I react. LOL It's been too long expecting something to happen, and when it did, I panic. I have been asked to go out with him twice. The first was a failure because I had something going on, and the second one, I would love to go, as friends, i swear and of course , maybe to know him better. But mum had said if I go, it means I want to be with him. I personally don't think so. So, now I have a feeling that I wont be able to make my own decision when the time comes, whoever it is. I might like somebody, and because my parents said something, but I might get the wrong idea that i don't like somebody. And, this is going to be a big problem in the future. My parents have now given me the green light that I am now allowed to date guys if i wanted to. They hinted, which I have often find it hilarious. But, I doubt that leniency though. ...

I just decided to write it up here because i doubt anybody would come across this site as much as I do, haha.  Something unexpected ( kinda ) happened on the 17th of June 2015, but it was totally understandable. I was watching the 9pm Tiger Mum show on TV while scrolling my whatsapp, just for fun. And then I was checking one of my best friends chat history, so when a message came in, there was no notification. As i exit, I realized my name was leading the message that I have overlooked. But as soon as I understood the tone of the message ( I did not finish reading it ) , I knew this was a confession. One that I had fear would come while we were in each other's company so often before this, it made me panic during the Truth or Dare game we had . But it had ceased down to a quiet tone after that. My friends and I  had a discussion about it long before and I knew I should do something before I mislead or hurt somebody, after all he is a good guy. But we were all so busy wi...

So, My lovely juniors whom I trained in Form 1 had lost in the first round of their first National Debate Competition, and my senior had asked me to write something for them , so, i just wanted to keep it here, haha! 大人们， 我这位非常老的外人知道你们去了全国赛， 还第一轮就输了。用外卡进了， 也该逗逗其他对手多一点才过瘾啊。额，后面这句是废话。以下，也是更多废话，说来说去也是一样的东西嘛。 你们年纪还”轻轻“，我吃醋了！这么快，又早就可以参加全国赛了，我根本都没那个资格。机会是有的，就是没资格。不是教练没给机会，是自己过不了自己那一关。正在念这一篇的老哥哥应该知道我到底是怎么了，不过我觉得他不懂。这不是重点，重点是你们真的做到这一点了，不是那么轻易就能够做到的东西，那就是战胜了自己。 你们输了，比起以前的我，应该还更伤心吧。上次见你们的时候说你们输了，我忘了是哪个比赛了，一脸伤心巴巴的样子（我觉得没有这个形容词啊）以前我输了，除了一点点的心灰意冷，就是安心，太安心了。因为我怕还需要打多一场。这就是你们和我的分别。所以这一点，我就可以非常肯定，你们不是普通的变态，明白？不明白也给我明白。 我不是那种会说那种激励人的话，这任务交给这位念着的人，（虽然本来写这个是要激励你们的）。不过，还是要说，你们真的不错了，不是最好，但迟早也会是最好的。这位老哥哥刚跟我说辩论界很黑，不过因为有你们这样的一队，就算黑，也不暗。（请你们在这时候让这位老哥哥，喷饭一下，你们呢，去倒水给他喝吧) 加油啦！ 接下来的比赛，不管是什么，只要上场，尽了自己最好的，那我们也没什么好嫌弃了，对吗？希望有一天再见到你们的时候，你们都还是一样喜欢辩论。输了，也就算了，没输过，怎么能赢。太爱你们啦！！（老哥哥，去喷饭多一次，大人们，再去倒水给他）仅此！ 要是要骂我怎么写到将烂，那就WhatsApp我吧，哈哈！原因是我都没你们的号码。