.The Reverse

My first year of university ended with a high note. Passing first year in the dental school had been my ultimate goal, and I made it, despite the real truth that I had barely survived it. The holidays are here , i should be busy catching up with friends and other stuff I always do -- enjoy. But somehow I had brought on something on myself that had doomed this holiday . I need to write about it. I need to write about you. Because one day when I looked back at it, i need to remember I was once okay, and that I was happy for a brief summer, and that everything had seem perfect. Dear you who taught me how to love, the hard way,  Yes, you. 4 months being with you. It was indeed a great one. I would spare the best details of it and keep them in my mind so that all i remember about you were the good ones.  The night after you decided you wanted to end it, I had wanted to beg you to give it a chance ( like you had asked me to) , but seeing what you had replied in the plea...

Dear Ex-Best Friend, Hi. It’s been awhile. I would like to say that I miss you, but part of me know that you probably don’t care. Part of me still hopes that you do though. I would also like to say that I’m sorry. I wish things didn’t end the way they did between us. There wasn’t room in our hearts to forgive at that time, and now too much time has passed. It’s too late.  But now, I would like to say I’m sorry for a number of things. I’m sorry that you have to answer questions about how I’m doing to your family and our old friends. I’m sorry that I call someone new my best friend. I’m sorry that I made you responsible for a lot of my secrets. I’m sorry that I didn’t care more. I’m sorry that we aren’t making all the memories we thought we would. I’m sorry for never uploading those photos of us, and now it would just be weird. And I’m sorry that it is weird. Us not being friends is weird. With all the apologies, I also want to thank you. I want to thank you for letting me g...

Today is the 29th August 2015, and I am leaving for USM Health Campus at Kubang Kerian, Kelantan tomorrow. The registration day is on Independence day . So, This would probably be my last post before starting my uni life. First of all, it freaks me out. Or so to speak, it scares the hell out of me. Before getting the offer for USM, I was afraid that I wasn't given my preferred course. Now that I've got what I wanted, I am terrified of it. Honestly,I really hope this isn't one big mistake in my first leap into adulthood. I really want to make sure I really could do it. Becoming a Dentist , in many people's opinion, is that it's a guarantee of your future, and an optimum level of work stress. That maybe on the outside, but the hard work and commitment that you have to put up with is definitely not as easy as it seems. I have talked to a few of my seniors and they definitely did feel almost the same like me. I have been making a point of not really telling the worl...

I came back from the YES Conference 6.0 held by the one and only YES Alumni Malaysia in Taiping, Perak, It was a brilliant conference, even though it feels more of a camp sometimes. Still, it's worth it---meeting my YES ohana, meeting and making new friends, gaining and sharing experience. It was a 3 full days of awesomeness and memories. Day 1, 21st August 2015 It was all a rush when my friend Munis, who was supposed to get both of us to Butterworth Sentral by 1.15pm. I was having my shower when he called and said : change of plan, his uncle will be picking us up in a pick-up van. We arrived at Butterwoth Sentral on time( there were schools on Friday, i forgot ) despite the traffic. We redeemed our tickets and waited for Ash, who was supposed to join us. He was late, the bus was supposed to leave at 1.35pm, and Munis had to plead the bus driver to wait. It appeared that Ash was delayed for 30 minutes by the ferry.  We arrived at Kamunting Bus Station by 2.45pm, and...

Please read at your own risk as there may be some changes as the years keep rolling. :) It's been awhile right? Well, I have been busy with--papers, printer, computers ( I am using 3 computer devices, lol). All this just for the preparations before I finally start my varsity year. So, I will just write up about what are the pre-USM preparations for my brother and future juniors, just to feed my blog. Date of IPTA Offer 2015/2016 Announcement: 11th August 2015, 12.00 pm. Step 1: ACCEPT THE OFFER that you have in mind BEFORE the DEADLINE.  Remember to make sure that this will be what you will see after accepting the offer. It's Important.  Step 2: PRINT out your OFFER LETTER. Sometimes, IPTA will send you the offer letter by mail. But for my case which is USM Kubang Kerian, they have stated that they won't be mailing us, so we have to print it instead. Step 3: PRINT all the DOCUMENTS ATTACHED in your OFFER LETTER WEBPAGE. They usually include Buku Panduan...

The call in July from Chen Long came earlier than I thought. In Fact, it came the very next 2 days. This time, he wanted me to accompany him to Seberang Jaya for shopping. I mean,, no big deal, but I find the reason for his invitation funny. haha. The point was, i thought I would ignore it. Because, I didn't want to have to say no to him. But I had another round of counselling from mum, and i finally realize that my answer could be so simple. I realized my problem was i had always had the wrong concept that if you want to be with somebody, there's always a trial period, or in other words, a trial period at the start of every relationship or the getting- to- know- each- other phase. I was wrong . You see, if you want to be with somebody, that means, you have the  desire to make it last, for as long as it can, till the very last moment. There shouldn't be an excuse saying that you can always pick another one if one does not suit you. No, you've got to gamble and pla...

It's been a lazy and crazy week, since I am learning how to drive. But  Chen Long has bugged me twice, and now I am confused how should I react. LOL It's been too long expecting something to happen, and when it did, I panic. I have been asked to go out with him twice. The first was a failure because I had something going on, and the second one, I would love to go, as friends, i swear and of course , maybe to know him better. But mum had said if I go, it means I want to be with him. I personally don't think so. So, now I have a feeling that I wont be able to make my own decision when the time comes, whoever it is. I might like somebody, and because my parents said something, but I might get the wrong idea that i don't like somebody. And, this is going to be a big problem in the future. My parents have now given me the green light that I am now allowed to date guys if i wanted to. They hinted, which I have often find it hilarious. But, I doubt that leniency though. ...