.The Reverse

The date for me to leave for KL and finally USA is nearing. To be honest, I am nervous. I got my Email from my host Family, a Hubbell Family in Saint Paul, Minnesota. They look really good, and there are a musical family. Consider it as a big family, since I only have 4 members, but Mine ,might be 7 members, if they all live together. People are all starting a new chapter of their lives, like today, some of my friends are already starting college. Some are serving their National Service in all sorts of places, Some decided to take up part-time jobs. Unlike me, i am still here spending my day finishing up presentations and packing bit by bit. Sometimes, I really felt scare. Its funny because I know this is what I wanted, something that I had fought for, with lots of luck. By  the time I come back, I wont be looking back at my old school life any more. I don't want to feel the guilt and sadness when I disappoint my parents, things I can't help being not good at. I just wanted