.The Reverse

26 FEB 11 The second musical instrument in my house after my Dad's guitar is .......... my ERHU....:) =P Finally.....~V^^V~

Excruciating. I saw him. That's still ok. But the worst part was when he sat at the next table just next to me, and second, during the meeting, he sat IN FRONT of me. URGH!! I have to control myself not to peep at him. Yet, he looked at me, and I have to show that I wasn't actually looking STRAIGHT at him. I seem Pervert. == NONONONO!!! ╭(╯^╰)╮ I musn't!!! I MUST NOT!!!HE's other's!!! I should not be behaving like that at all….. > < !

Today's Memo… Today's Sketch Time : Morning, on my way to school. Venue : In the Car Topic : Relationship Talk with My Dad A lucky thing it wasn't a SEX talk.==' Dad told me his colleague told him I AM HAVING a BF. Well, if he said, I HAD, then maybe I might still tell my dad, maybe. But I really DON"T have one. He asked whether anybody is interested in me or I am interested in somebody. So, I told him, Nobody is interested in me. As for me to them, I think they are nice , but they are still normal. Everybody is still normal for me. Personal Moments: 1, Saw A, but not the other. I didn't see Jacob-face as well. Vetagen talked to me again. I was really happy. But I hate to say, He's taller, and that makes me look like…a dude.== 2, I don't have time for myself, debate and exam. Stress. > < 3, I bought 1 keychain-like hanger from Azfar, RM 3.50.But I will only use it as a bookmark. It's yellow and really cute. On it is the word : HOPE. =) 4, I c

I thought I will never get over the grief of losing Edward. In fact, after a month, and after the unexpected birthday wish, I found that I had forgave him. I realized that he is now, only a friend to me, not best friends, but still friends. I miss him at some times, but mostly if I saw the name on shoes and a few others. Like today, I saw his brother again. I thought of him immediately. He's working and he got fatter. XD I said before that I got a silly hobby, looking at handsome guys. A and Jacob-face. I wasn't that crazy about them. But there's one person that I sincerely have an interest in him. . Not the " interest" , but the normal interests. The first time I saw him, he gave me a different impression, like it's a spark, he doesn't know me, but I know him. I might have a crush on him. But I know where and what I am. When I see him, I won't give the kind of reaction when I saw A or Jacob-Face, I will only be happy and grateful, I have not fall f

什么鬼东东？？！！T.T 我竟然会有将的心态？ 唉，也不懂啦，昨天倒霉到爆。给那Ady骂=.=...我是冤枉的啊～ 结果今天，也没什么好心情，连看帅哥的心情都差点被毁了。 天啊～我是还要看的，不过越想越不对劲，以前都没那样，自从那天后，就开始了那样的爱好。 多数是自己的心态所变，当然，我也是因为有些外在影响的。。。 其实，我自己也不是很清楚我是怎么回事。 人都走了，我也不能绑着人家。不过还是忍不住保住了一切有关他的东西。 我非常感激我自己没有答应自己不可在这里写到他。我知道这是不可能的。 唉，怎么一直不能狠一点？？！！T.T 奇怪的是，我发现我多了一个性格。。。 羡慕+忍耐。。。汗==lll 真的不懂我到底是重邪还什么东，看到了某些不该羡慕的东西。就会羡慕。 惨。。。我不要啊～有点不正常。 人家都说我不正常了，我不想等下变疯子列。。。 @____@! 看帅哥这一点，我不能再将了。要是继续下去，迟早我会变怪物（比疯子更糟）。 自于那。。。羡慕 的东西，控制下好了。。。== ! 本人今天用华语写，原因是因为，我比较更容易发泄～！@#￥%……&×+？/

Yesterday was my birthday, it's also Man-Days, "Ren Ri" in Chinese. I didn't get any presents, but I was really happy, because, Mom gave me a wonderful surprise, and most of my friends wished me, A said his wishes through facebook, and Jacob-Face , live at school. But the best part is, HE wished me happy birthday . I was really shocked. @@! I checked my phone and the number a few times to make sure it was really him, I couldn't be sure because that number hadn't appear in my inbox for at least 1 month. ==, plus, I thought he will forget about my birthday . I really wasn't expecting his wish. =) We texted a few times and it ended, just like that, I promised to wish him next year. My friend told me that another person knows about my tale, that means somebody isn't a good secret box. I won't hate that person , just that I won't trust em' that easily anymore. Sorry.=( But who cares, it's a tale, but not many knows what happen. So let them g

7 JAN 2011 Back to school today. V^^V~ Missed school so much!! The morning was ok, with the usual jokes and laughter with my friends during PJ. But the afternoon was...> < ! SPOILED by Sanusi's period. I really cannot stand his "perfect" writing, I am trying not to use the word Shit to describe it. His writing is worse than the first word I wrote when i was young. Gosh, mine looks better even though it's abit squash and wriggly. Maybe God wanted to give me a treat for my great patience : I saw both Jacob-Face and A at the bustop while waitng for my mum. :)

6 JAN 2011 Yesterday was quite intresting. I visited an uncle, a far relative, but really close to my dad. His wife kept saying things like pretty, stunning, beautiful, mature...etc...all over again and again..++!! NOT EVEN ONE FIT OK!! Those are more suitable for my mum...T^T I avoided Kelwin's gaze today. Scared that he has more questions for me which i don't know how to answer. I am still too young for that. And i don't want another round of trial by his dad and mum... > < The best part is i saw LIM GUAN ENG, prime minister of Penang . I love PENANG so much!!! So happy to have him there and not any other barisan's people as the minister, or else my birth place would become like...++!! So, yesterday means i saw Guan Eng live, it's no longer in the TV screen or the papers. XD

Chinese New Year really is DAMN boring. T.T 1. Many of my cousins didn't come back. Less angpau and less laughter and nobody to play with. 2. Only 2 venues, uncle's house and grandma's house. I prefer my grandma's, more strangers, means more angpau to get. 3. A pile of homework and kerja kayu which is still incomplete. Sanusi's karangan is already completed. Exercise books still UNcountable. == 4. No firecrackers. T.T My parents don't allow me to touch but see and hear. 5. Bored until I did Maths in the New Year. Polygons can be really irritating. and i still haven't reach Indices. 6. I miss school. I miss Jacob-face and Meinv...huhuhu.....T^T Can anybody help me to ease my boredom ....????

Today was...great? dull? interesting? ladadida~~~@@! I am only left with a few minutes to write this. Not much time left before i am automatically logged out. I really hate the parental control. ==! Met Kelwin today. Had a chat ,one to one, with him, in one of the room, at my grandma's house, after our reunion dinner. He asked me alot of questions. Explaining to me what's happening between him and his crush ( not a girlfriend ...YET). What with 3 person wooing that girl. The form 5 guy got kicked out, the competitor, great with piano, but a loser in karate. =P and him, Oh, just go cut your hair first...LOL. He asked whether he should continue to occupy that girl, i can't answer that, so it's up to you, said I. telling me that after he graduate from Chung Ling, he's gonna go to Australia or England. He said he planned to find somebody over there, but he said it's going to be an impossible task, he said that it's too difficult when he does not excel in English