.The Reverse

I woke up at 10 though I wasn't suppose to. I slept at 2.00 reading another novel. Reading is Dreaming with Open Eyes.  It's been so long since  I read a "straight-sentences-way-of-writing" book, and it's even a Chinese romance story. Not much of romance in it, I don't know, more of laughter. I just finished it. I bought the book in January when I was at Taiwan. It's written by spyorange ( the way she addressed herself )  橘子 . Not bad, it made me thought of a person. # I am damn so lazy to do a thing, I played Insanaquarium, now that I trespassed it in my pen drive. The junk folder. Pity my fingers. There was once where there were so many fish that I let them get killed by the alien.

I just finished my add maths. Whatever, that question. -.- Confusing sequence though it isn't. Jot : 1. Called Hazard. It was rude since I asked him that kind of question, I am really sorry. No, It wasn't really me asking. Honestly. I really mean it that I won't ask him silly questions, never again. I was just unhappy that mum actually did stand  by the door to listen to what we had been talking. She did come in with a Knock, I didn't even say OK.Don't knock then. I wasn't doing anything bad, but then sometimes I just strayed of in a chat with my friends. She do think until the end of brink. That brink, and sure enough, her hint was clear. Whatever. I have my own conscience. Anyway, I owed him a thank you. THANK YOU, though this is "not sincere" sincerely, 2. I know it shouldn't have been this way after being truthful, Damn truthful, or even being truthful. I guess my mind whirls the wrong way, gets dirty, gets rocky, and then I tried to  

1. I hope my plan goes well. 2. I know it was a joke, though it's hilarious, but I do better keep that thing out of my mind. 3. I do better get out of that well,     Forget the crown,     Leave the crown.     Be Brown. It's beautiful, but I have to let it Die. # I remembered one day where One Unexpected sentence came out from him, I thought it was for somebody and scolded myself  for being such an ass, but then it was the other way round. # I was near there. =)  

I didn't know that I would one day triggered a hatred of Hazard.  I mean he doesn't seem like one who would. It's not a really big case, just that I was really surprise that he told me he hated me for a moment. Yeah, A MOMENT. Anyway, no matter what, I shouldn't have use the same way I dealt with the BIG D thing on Hazard. It was how I have always dealt with it. I seriously Thanked God that he told me honestly, and Thank You for telling me. =) I don't really care if it's a joke or something, I just know I shouldn't do that anymore.

As usual, Saturday, dad wasn't going to work. So, dad asked me to go for a swim I didn't ignore. I should since I wasn't a person who really exercise, so, I woke up at 6.30 just for a swim. I decided to leave my phone behind, thinking I won't be needing it, but i was quite wrong. It so happened that remembered that my friend will be having a test, Undang, they say. So, I borrowed my dad's phone and typed a short message, but I realised I didn't have the number. I recalled that I used to call my friend with my dad's phone, so I proceeded to the call history but in vain. So I ended up punching up the number that I could remember, thinking if I got it right. In the end, I found out I had one wrong number. Whatever, that person who received must be feeling weird why would he have to go for the Undang test ? XD I finished 10 laps within a short time, faster than usual. The Carmen boy was sharing a lane with Lim Jet and I was wondering if he was mad at me or s

I decided to use this template for the moment. Purple for the first time. I wasn't really good in tweaking blog skins, although my friend did send me her link of tutorial and pastel blog skins that were lovely enough, but the HTML codes made it a little difficult for me. Templates are easier as they are abit simple and the Layouts give less problem, sometimes none. it suited me for I wasn't really a pro in blog designing. I am currently left with 23 minutes, and will be logged out automatically. Once again, my dad exercise his right as a father for limiting my excess to the social world. I am actually al-right with it, as long as he does not squint at what I am doing and allow me to have free excess with my socialising rights. I wasn't really happy, I felt like snapping back when Dad insisted that I should discard off my backpack-like-school bag and take a hand-carry office bag. I am so against it, I know my shoulder is abit like, what you said a cloth hanger (though I do

Nixon is giving me headaches. REAL LOT OF HEADACHES. I mean he's already 15, FIFTEEN. Doesn't he know how to respect other people's PRIVACY? FOR GOD's SAKE!!! I am old enough to think rationally, about every actions, thoughts and the consequences. I don't need any additional love-stuff-lectures in this house, or rather for my SPM year , house-chores-lectures and socialising-lectures are enough to make me go sick. Don't make me sick of my young life, don't make me sick of you, just when I have just started to trust you as if you are like my big brother, like I have always hope for one, or  that you will one day be, although we aren't in terms of age. I want you to be my brother, although you always call me chang-ying-dan (fly eggs), although you always have to prepare meals for me, you are still like my brother. PLEASE DO CHANGE, BE MATURE AND RESPECTFUL, even if it's just for me. #Don't blame me if I blurt out your New York Girl.

I have finished Like the Flowing River by Paulo Coelho. I will have to return it in the end, but I really need reference sometimes, so I will just link it here, so as to maintain the copyrights of the author himself. 1. The Story of a Pencil 2. Excerpt of The Art of Withdrawal " We see the evil in others because we know the evil in ourselves. We never forgive those who wound us because we believe that we would never be forgiven. We say the painful truth to others because we want to hide it from ourselves. We show our strength, so that no one can see our frailty. That is why, whenever you judge your brother, be aware that it is you who is in the dock."          Okakura Kakuzo   3. Excerpt of Remaining Open to Love   A rose dreamed day and night about bees, but no been ever landed on her petals. The flower, however, continued to dream. During the long nights, she imagined a heaven full of bees, which  flew down to bestow fond kisses on her. By doing this, she was

My holidays are still quite boring. It doesn't have a routine. No plan. No schedule, no nothing. I was practically lying around on the floor or sofa. Sometimes, if I have the mood, I will only breeze through some school stuff. I borrowed 2 books from the Kulim Library.  Like The Flowing River by Paulo Coelho, one of my favourite, as usual. The other The Speech of Angels by Sharon Maas. It's quite new to me. I started the epilogue, and it didn't make me feel like putting in down just yet. The one by Paulo Coelho , this time was new in terms of what he is trying to share, it's all his thoughts and reflection, so the index is quite long as there are many stories. The beginning was extremely startling as he learned about being a writer in the 1960's A writer always wears glasses and never combs his hair. Some of them actually made it into my life dictionary, for example A writer has a duty and an obligation never to be understood by his ow

Just wanted to write about yesterday. I am beginning to think that my brother is getting obsess about Declan, or rather CL. I actually went into his family at a food court. When stepping inside, I wasn't focus, as I wasn't in the mood to have dinner, I just saw specks of T-shirt everywhere. Then : " Jie! That's Chen Long right?! " Huh? " Jie! It's really him, how come you didn't notice.?"    Hey, my eyes are not only for him. -.- We chose a table behind them, and Nixon kept eyeing me if I was looking and CL, I wasn't. The fan was spinning straight at us and we switched to the table next to CL's family, he turned back and realise it was me but I just ignored. =P Nixon was practically "fidgeting".  Gosh, I was so frustrated that I asked him : " Are you crazy about him ? " Jot : Things turned out to be sort of simplified. Maybe I wasn't in time. I am in love with Ellie Goulding. Her lyrics seem to alwa

My alarm rang at 6.30. Urgh. I actually forgot what I was supposed to do. I slept and thought about a while, and realised my first task would be swimming. OK, I admit I don't mind swimming, but definitely not in training form. I swam for 10 laps. It was tiring due to lack of stamina and of course, practice. =D I didn't see anybody that I  know, maybe some of the uncles that had known me when I was training at Fun World in Bukit Mertajam. One of them actually reminded me that I was in a non-parking zone area. ( Meaning why i kept stopping for a rest. -.- ) Later, we went to the market, and for the first time, introduced to BREADFRUIT. ( Bread -fruit ) @@! I was thinking of something like this actually.. and it turned out to be like this... Not really cute  XD and I ate it this way... But it is well known in this crispy form...haha. it's a snack actually. and i came across the scientific name...  Artocarpus altilis,  whatever.. XD no

My mode was at first happy. Just Simply. Happy. I realise that my brother trusted me. He told me that he like a girl in his school but gave up as his friend was a step ahead from him. Though I admit, I would have done exactly the same thing, but I am different. he's the guy. So, I just told him that in future, don't you dare give up just like that unless that girl is completely hopeless. I guess he just brought in the issue by asking me if i have ever like anybody. I have. Sorry to say that. He asked me to tell him, due to some reasons, i told him i like Pacak. Well, honestly, I do. I am still crazy about him though it was just seeing him through his facebook timeline. I just went out to the Padang today when I saw Pradip playing football, they were always one Gang, well, Not always, sometimes =) Jots : I was excited. I was determined to be oblivion. ( love this word ) I was asking myself to be grateful. I entrusted myself with a will where I would be the one who would leav

10th NOV 2012 It was Saturday, and Dad was nagging at Mum whether or not to go to Wai Po's house. I don't mind actually, I had been missing the food so much. I miss my grandparents actually. There were just so... right, i just miss them. I was busy with the templates, but i just give up, there's something wrong, i couldn't upload the files at all. Urgh. Forget it. At about noon, I on my Fb and chatted with Angkor Wad, I will just ignore the stupid names he gave me just because of the food I ate. and Lingesh came and asked me about RED album, he introduced me a song let bla3 never let you go. I can't remember, the name is too long. Thank God at least there was a message to deal with in the car, or I swear i could have thrown up in there. 11th NOV 2012 I woke up at about 8am. took breakfast, I was a little touch by the fact that Dad went to the market to buy Ma-Lai-Ko wherever we are in Balik Pulau. Thanks Dad. =) I started out by sweeping the front yard and

To be frank, I had been absent for the last 3 days, but I went back to the school on the last day. Probably unnecessary  as mum would said, but I still think I should go. I went. Today's the celebration of my best friend's and JoJo's birthday. It was fun, I mean the whole plan. Haha. Forced-to-eat-cake was totally foolish. Luckily my braces is eligible to take it.I helped Miss Gooi to tidy up her room, together with WH. It was fun, though Dusty. Her rooms were full of unexpected things. Some of the oldies' certs, my slips, ( I can't believe it, 233/269, my first term exam in form 1. this is totally stupid, at least I got 15.) tea sets, calculators, Lizard. I was lucky, I did not scream, or else there would be one more thing Miss Gooi can keep in her mind and use it on me beside form Dogs. -.- I went back only at 2.00 like every Thursday. Jots： I was worried, but everything seems OK, the way she told me, just that there;s one more thing to think of. I can't do

It was almost midnight, and I was given a task to invite and talk to the monster. They did call him that anyway. I wonder why ? Aren't they almost the same, fair and square. 1+1 = Monster. I settled it within an hour, it shouldn't even be one hour. Indeed, a hard task. I settled it, they asked me to forced him, like i need to seduce him. Haha, I told Pei " apa you piqiaq dya pun boleh piqiaq". Sincerely, i thought he can link it by himself. Jots: This a a completely new record, Two and a half hours. I thought I had never been so rebellious. Ok, this is just so weird and funny.He do asked for my opinion. Honestly, I won't want to spoil everything. I don't want to be the bad girl, I don't want to ruin other people's hopes. I just don't think I can face the consequences if i give my answer. His problems were settled in the end anyway, just asked him to do what he wants. He brought up my problem. I was actually thinking about CL, what if that person

Thanks to my friend, I didn't think it would be that easy. EASY AS EASY . (influenced by Lament =P) I learned something from my actions. It made me felt all grown up. At least, I grew up a bit. I know how to control my emotions and all. It wasn't really that scary, if not I would have second thoughts about it. Of course, I know that this is all a little bit foolish, haha. However, I felt better. Much much better.=) Work Hard for what you want to feel, what you want to live. It's in your hands. PS : Tomorrow's Konferansi Waris. Scare, yet unavoidable. My results sucks!

I am QUITE HAPPY Today. =) Hehe. Went for the monthly review, tightened my teeth, and I got back the Light Blue Colour. HoHo, Love it. Miss the colour. XD Jots from Yesterday : I didn't think I would one day be so stupid. I am, but I was glad that I was STUPID at that time, It Felt Great.  GREAT AS GREAT. I didn't know we would even laugh about it. LAUGHED HARD AT IT. I wasn't afraid. That was damn surprising. I didn't really expect it to be this way. I thought all those hateful words, harsh words would be delivered to my ears. That was really the BIGGEST JOKE that I think I ever share. Are you hurt that I told you what I was really thinking and planning to do? Maybe you were not lying, but I learned not to believe easily. I learned that LIES exist. Sorry =P I try to believe you. We made a deal. I agreed to it. You told me that we are equalise. Oh, because I said I don't believe you. You insisted that we each exchanged secrets. Threatened. I WILL THREATEN Y