.The Reverse

You, by the light Is the greatest find In a world full of wrong You're the thing that's right Finally made it through the lonely To the other side You set it again, my heart's in motion Every word feels like a shooting star I'm at the edge of my emotions Watching the shadows burning in the dark And I'm in love And I'm terrified For the first time and the last time In my only life And this could be good It's already better than that And nothing's worse Than knowing you're holding back I could be all that you need If you let me try You set it again, my heart's in motion Every word feels like a shooting star I'm at the edge of my emotions Watching the shadows burning in the dark And I'm in love And I'm terrified For the first time and the last time In my only… I only said it 'cause I mean it I only mean 'cause it's true So don't you doubt what I've been dreaming 'Cause it fills me up and holds me close whenever I

I finished a novel…The Prisoner of Zenda. I didn't plan to read it, to be truthful, I read it accidentally because I don't know it's the novel for Penang state. ╭(╯^╰)╮. It's a love story, that's why I read it till the end without bothering to check it. Rudolf and Flavia always… of course, Flavia never love the King of Ruritania, she fell in love with Rudolf without knowing he is not the real king, but a fake king who was committed to replace The Real King temporarily. But there is one part that I don't understand about Rudolf, why he doesn't want to beg her to marry him if they were both madly in love, instead he left Flavia in order to fulfill her wish about ruling the country. Was it because he cannot bear the fact that he is nothing but an English Man? And why couldn't he visit Flavia once a year? He didn't even wanted to visit Stresaul just to even meet her. I just don't get it… As a result of my debate title, I ended up reading about Romeo

My same old day where I always dream about him no matter where I am. This time I am at home thinking about him. The SPM had already started and I guess the time had really come. I mean...Yeah… SPM is the deadline. As before, the temper came. I was obviously in a bad mood when I was discussing my debate. I was like ordering my members to obey and finish the work. It turned out ok. The script was done, the questions were quite ok. Overall, it is still done before the deadline. =) But I have something on mind; I have to compromise with him. I sent him a good luck at about 1 in the afternoon, I guessed he just finished his first BM paper, I was surprised to find that he replied me after 12 seconds. That was really fast, faster than before. Normally I would dread about it, doing something else to distract me from the awful waiting and loneliness . Before that, I would have started thinking that he doesn't care about me anymore, and after that I would regretted for thinking about this a

Utcut-ing.... I am very grateful to Xiu-2 who brought up this word. The best ever word to describe a feeling that i don't even know how to explain, a word that shows how desperate and frustrating i am, a word that reveals how much i miss him, a word that had convinced myself that i still have hope, a word that conceals the deepest emotion i ever hold in myself for him... What a day it was, having to bear all those missing and frustrating. Missing was always my choice of word when it has to be about him, not even the word love made it to the list. I mean love is powerful, but missing is kind of mysterious, it holds some kind of charm, a kind off word that gives me hope. Hope. I am always hopping, in fact, i never stop hoping. I was wondering why i needed hope so badly, could it be possible that one day, i will no longer need hope to carry on what is left behind by him for me? Even hoping for his messages had become a daily habit, even when it means i have to be grounded by my paren

I just wanted to say i don't feel like doing anything at the moment except feeding my blog with all kinds of emotions i had been carrying all day... First of all...i certainly miss him alot. Its like a thousand miles away from his house...but to me it's worst..i just can;t understand the feeling i am having for him. Having the presence of utcut-ness was likely, and the snapping came as usual eventhough i did promise to myself not to. I avoided the sulking part, but that did not stop me from feeling unbearable. I tried not to cry because i know tears won;t change anything . i know he is still out there...but i just need to see him. I need to see him now... But everything from me for him is always a no, except missing him . I wanted him with me forever...its a no. I wanted to see him...it's a no. I wanted to speak to him in person...it's a no yet again. i thought i would be able to pull myself together today ( only today...) but NO! Mum suddenly brought up the

My first Saturday of my holidays. The first thing i did when i was awake was to check my phone. =( ... "ok....nt yet..maybe it's later..." i was sort of dissapointed..i do thought he will give me a message or a call to wish me luck...but i haven't got it. I was so use to him bidding me a "wish you luck" before i have to attend any competition or occasion...i felt like i was about to shout when i didn't get a thing. By 8.30...still no sign..instead the saukerl came..ok...he wished me luck too..but i don;t want his...i wanted HIS ... The spell didn't break . It's 9.00..URGH!! frustrating!~why can't i even get to see his text. It's bad enough to not being able to talk to him...not to see him..worst...not to be able to see him to cure my "me missing him".it was so frustrating that i was almost sure that the hole i was fretting about was going to form ...the hole that won't heal if it forms... 12.30..i was almost planning to snap

Here I am~~spilling out my secrets ... i relly miss him alot...even one day makes a difference...i do got my chance of talking to him last Tuesday...and i was wondering...singing always seem to be the last topic before his phone was out of credit...i can't believe that a person likes him like singing so much... he texted me today...finally....I MISS YOU!!! oh well, you do know how many days ..its 4 days...hmm...thats weird...normally it took you a week to top up...and the truth was finally reveal when u say...u BORROWED... i was wondering if your absence will break me...if a hole will form in me...i wanted you badly...yet i can;t seem to have you..i have no right.You are the only thing that has ever make me fall over...i can;t stop thinking about you...once you stop finding me...i will always be restless...i admit i am too selfish to let you go... i can't believe i actually accepted you...i never regretted the choice...i met you last year...can't believe it myself when i do

18/11/10~~2.51 pm......urgh!!!BORINGGGGG................. having debate discussions at the Persatuan Hokkien,almost everyday.... i can't seem to have enough time... 3 WEEKS!!!~~ @@!!~ i can't live through that~i will become crazy~~ i am glad that my group members are helpful..~~ thanks alot~!!~ ~~~~~~~~~STRESS!!!~~~~~~~~~~~~

15 NOV 2010___My Last Day of Form 2 Life in SMKSB /2010...=) well~~it ended juz as it started, alot of things had happened, i noticed i was able to handle a few weird friends normally....especially this year... arguments that are supposed to be avoided found me and i had managed to face it... i changed interms of my emotions...i seem to be easily frustrated...depressing...i can be extremely out of mind when i am relly happy about sumthing..especially when it's about Him~ And of course..the last day wasn't complete whithout the presence of him...but his's charms will always be with me...i will never forget... the fact that that he was part of my life will never be forgotten..even if you change...even if you decided to say goodbye...i will always be there to listen to your last words for me... 2010_ Goodbye to you~Goodbye to HIM, he had made my life become so memorable and precious... 2011_ I will wait for you...I only wished you will never forget ...i wished i will still be

W.O.W~~~8 Nov till 13 Nov...i didn't post a thing..all because of the exam...it started badly...but ended well...i wonder why that is...maybe i did have some secret charms tis time..XD..haha... ___________________________________ Now, speaking of charm...you definitely have a charm...a nice charm though~=) love it...you can turn the word HATE into sumtin relly nice(not to say i agree with you..but still..its a nice try)thx! Had a nice trip to Alor Setar...and from a CHARITY PROGRAMME...it changed in to a ONE DAY TRIP...nice...i do thought i had to wash the houses...from the time i woke up...i was trying not to think about what kind of WATER am i going to get in contact...in the end..my worries were proved to be useless...haha!! We went to 3 places...but i only enjoy one of it...PUSAT SAINS NEGARA ALOR SETAR, KEDAH. Honestly...i don;t even know that this place even exsists...LOL...i thought there was only one Muzium Padi located beside the swimming centre...i wonder why i missed it

i haven't thought about you leaving me... it isn;t worth my pain to waste my time thinking about you leaving... i waited patiently for the last 7 days...Ah...finally you do text me...again... that was a relief...a relief that was enough to brighten up my day...not to mention that my house had an electricity break out last night...@_@! We were discussing about our memories... our first conversation...our last conversation...and of course..when did the tale started... i wasn't surprise that you got all the answers wrong..because normally i was the only one who always turn back the pages of these memories... you asked me again why i decided to accept you...you don;t want to hear my old answer about the blue sea...(to be frank...it was you who thought me how to answer this kind of question...) so i just answer you truthfully that it all started when i do talked to you for the first time (its not what we call at first sight...no..its different...) so you pulled me into your world...

第三天了。。。有点想念他。。。不。。。是非常想念他。。。 那些它发送的信息。。。啊， 我尽然没发现里头的意义。。。简称“我并没有去留意。。。” 可前天，我突然打开那封信息，依照那指示，一一把每一个号码给删除掉。 结果。。。那信息带给我的竟是满满的惊喜！！！ 满满的惊喜！！！！！ 呵呵，结果呢，我每一天竟然要按出那个图案，至少也要一次我才甘心。。。我怎样都想都想不到你是怎么把那些标点符号摆成那意想不到的图案。。 每次按出来后的心情，还是跟第一次的心情一样，我真的很喜欢那信息。。。 原以为你想摆的图案是天空中的 星星 。。可我最后发现你摆的是 星“心” 啊。。。 星“心” 。。。 我现在还是在欣赏着那图片。。真的太美了。。。你说你花了整个下午去弄它。。。恩，我百分百的相信。。。这绝对是独一无二的。。。本想转发给朋友，可是后来想了想，觉得没有必要。。。就让那信息永远都是我的。。。 哈哈。。。不过还是有把它发送给一位朋友，不过那只是图案。。我并没有把真个摆设给发送出去。。因为那是你的。。你是那封信息的原创者。。。 有个念头想把它打在这里分享，可是怎样打都打不到。我弄不到那效果。。呵呵。。。 或许。。。我本来就不需要打上去。。。因为你们应该也会看到。。。哈哈！！ 那信息。。我不懂。。。或许真的是给我的。。。我接受。。。真的很开心。。。 不过要是你想要在另一个时期把它送给另一个人。。。我不会介意。。。唔，不必向我禀告。。。 因为我有你那封信已经很满足了。。。成为第一个收到你那独一无二的作品。。。我，真的很满足。。。 谢谢你把那信息送给了我。。。

if i die young bury me in satin lay me down on a bed of roses sink me in the river at dawn send me away with the words of a love song ooh ooh ooh ooh lord make me a rainbow I'll shine down on my mother she'll know I'm safe with you and she stands under my colors oh ......and life ain't always what you think it ought to be no ain't even gray but she buries her baby the sharp knife of a short life well I've had just enough time if i die young bury me in satin lay me down on a bed of roses sink me in the river at dawn send me away with the words of a love song the sharp knife of a short life well, i have just enough time and I'll be wearing white when i come into your kingdom I'm as green as the ring on my little cold finger I've never known the lovin' of man but it sure felt nice when he was holdin' my hand there's a boy here in town who says he'll love me forever who would have thought forever could be severed by the sharp knife of a s