Unfix.

I realise I am losing a grip on myself. Emotional, the same old girl like last year. I know there's really nothing to worry about. Yet, I am.

I am worried about my temper.
I am worried about my daily life. ( I hate volcano eruptions in 251)
I wanted to be alone with somebody.
I needed somebody that understands me.
I longed for somebody to really talk to me about everything.

I am thinking about everything way too much. Over reactive. Angkor Wat the trigger didn't even change my mood as well, though he always would have. I just felt like ignoring and snapping. I felt left out. Like I lost somebody that I was very sure that we were almost related. Like I do suddenly loss faith in somebody who believed in me, loss your trust that you have on me.I snapped at Magnesium most of the time, and regretted about it after a second. Words came out just like that, without filtration. I was suppose to sleep at 11pm everyday, well, I am still here. I don't have complete control over my life.

I still don't understand what am i suppose to be everyday. Character.
My character isn't fixed.

My character isn't fix.

Unfix. I really need somebody to patch me up. I just don't know who.

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