Written and Noted in my Mind

Life was beginning to grow bored when little specks of colour had began to fade of from my life. I had tried my very best to prevent the biggest speck of amomg all of them from turning a total white. I had thought about it and I still think the colour for you is blue. Blue reminds me of your quote, the blue sea. Blue reminds me of comparing you with water, u are strong and yet, soft. Now, enough with colours.

I cannot convince myself that although you are near to me and yet still too far for me to reach, I could not find any relevant reason for my choice for choosing you until this moment.. Yesterday was 30^th of NOV 2010. You had manage to breeze through Moral and had just enough time for me to bait your answer. I was given the authority to start a new topic for a chat. And so I made up my mind it is time for me to fish out our answer personally.

"Why am I your chosen one?" As always, I would ask him any question in a staright forward manner. I hate suspense and I do not like others to endure it for my benefit. I would not wind him up, start a game of -why-don't-you guest-?- and have me end up with a mystery. I have to this my own way. I warned him before hand that I don't want the same answer since he had managed to get my answer without the -blue-sea- quote.

" Why? Well…I like you…that's all" This was his reply.

" No why?" Obviously, I am trying to force out the truth from him.

" Yup, no why..just ..like.." Upon reading this, I was surprised of how at ease I am of his simple answer. A person like me seem so easy to be content with just a few sweet answers. But, despite me feeling content about it, I am still not satisfied as I need to know a deeper truth.

" What about before, don't you find me funny or irriating at all?" This is what I wanted to know. Of all his answers, I have to make sure what was his oppinion about my first impression. The memories of my first meeting with him is so far , and yet still near enough for me to cling tightly around it.

" Nop, I have a liking towards you since our 1^st meeting.." Ok, I fail to fish it out from him. = =!

After texting for a while , it suddenly occured to me there was something that I wanted to ask him, not important, but minor. I just wanted to know if his's friends were …erm ..you know…telling him something.

" Did xxx sms you telling you that he saw me on Saturday at about 7pm?"

Its was the day where I had finished my 2^nd debate competition. We went to a restaurant for dinner. XXX came. I think he knows who I am, I am not that difficult to recognize. At that time, I was saying to myself " Will he get his phone and message some one?" I was prying and…GOSH, HE DID PULLED OUT HIS PHONE!

"Yup, he did. Why?"

"Nothing, I juz happen to come acrossed one of your friends."

"Owh, he didn't tell me about that..owh…is his sis pretty?"

" Yeah, she's pretty, don't you know her?"

"I know her…and I am talking to her right now..XD"

He was mainly trying to make me feel jealous. WAHAHA!! He failed!!! I told him he won't find me feeling jealous. What's the point to ruin my happiness where I had already gained both his answers and promises? And there's one more thing that I felt furious about. He actually wanted to come to Persatuan Hokkien to see me, but because of certain reason, he left for home. WHY WHY WHY!!!??? Why such a chance should be wasted in such an unfortunate way??!!!! As we continue chatting, we ended up flirting abit.( as what fish said )

I wasn;t sure what actually happened to him the day after that, he didn't text me and what I realize was it really hurt me when he said something in a hush-hush. I hate that.

I am sorry I can't continue writing about it for the time being.