It's intimidating. I know.
Who would have thought that I would live up till now to listen to those comments? I didn't choose for it to happen, fate it is. So, while doing my school work without really knowing what I am doing actually, I came to a certain sense that maybe that's why I couldn't resist the pull, and by putting me through it, I will gain the immunity.
Sooner or later.
I don't really care if people think I am really the breaker or something, (Obviously, I can't think of another word yet ). I have ended up being like this since last year, and now the only thing that I have decided is to really tell my close friend about it. It's too important that I should. Not because I know it wouldn't change his mind or just anything, but because I do not need a rupture between us.
It's stupid. I know.
To go on and on about this matter with him really makes him frustrated. Nothing shown on the face, but I can feel it, who asked me to be the one that really care about him once before due to some reasons. I know he lied, he hides, like what I was immune to.
I know not to take his every glances for granted. It was just an coincidence. Though deep inside me felt better whenever it happened. I didn't hope for more, because that's impossible and really disgusting to even yearn for it as in me.
It's ridiculous. I know.
To start all these things which he didn't even think of.
PS : Just, just don't change a thing. Keep the coordinates. You know why.
Who would have thought that I would live up till now to listen to those comments? I didn't choose for it to happen, fate it is. So, while doing my school work without really knowing what I am doing actually, I came to a certain sense that maybe that's why I couldn't resist the pull, and by putting me through it, I will gain the immunity.
Sooner or later.
I don't really care if people think I am really the breaker or something, (Obviously, I can't think of another word yet ). I have ended up being like this since last year, and now the only thing that I have decided is to really tell my close friend about it. It's too important that I should. Not because I know it wouldn't change his mind or just anything, but because I do not need a rupture between us.
It's stupid. I know.
To go on and on about this matter with him really makes him frustrated. Nothing shown on the face, but I can feel it, who asked me to be the one that really care about him once before due to some reasons. I know he lied, he hides, like what I was immune to.
I know not to take his every glances for granted. It was just an coincidence. Though deep inside me felt better whenever it happened. I didn't hope for more, because that's impossible and really disgusting to even yearn for it as in me.
It's ridiculous. I know.
To start all these things which he didn't even think of.
PS : Just, just don't change a thing. Keep the coordinates. You know why.
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